to do or not to do?to risk or not to risk?to try or not to try?
first ask yourself this: can you afford to lose? if you delve head on into the task ahead, can you afford to face the consequences of your actions?
if yes, by all means. it'll be a bonus if you win, but not too much of a loss if you do lose.
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bidding is omg sian.just to get that perfect class so that i can have wed off and mon slp till 12(=X), i'm like checking the bidding website every hour.zzz.pray i can get it.
but then again, even if i get it, i might not need to take it!which is even more sian.so screwed up.why can't they just tell me their decision now?
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i'm beginning to hate my driving instructor. downright arsehole. i ask him question, he happy answer, not happy don't answer. don't ask him question, he'll ask why i never ask him question. like i'm supposed to know i do wrongly right???if i know my mistakes i don't need an ass like you to teach me alrdy!
he'll say,'if you dunno, then you ask me.' then when i ask him, he'll say things like,'can you use your brain and think?'
walao.
seriously unprofessional.
even as a tuition teacher, you'll see the kid's answer and tell him why he/she's wrong. you can't possibly wait for the kid to TELL you he's wrong and ask you for the correct answer!coz if he knows he's wrong he won't need the teacher anyway wat.
and another major peeve: he'll say things like 'you try and do it your way(without actually telling me what's the mistake.) if you can succeed in parking, i'll give you $5000 and teach you free driving until you pass.'
ya ya i know you are the pro here and you know every single minute detail of how to park correctly. that doesn't give you a licence to be an arrogant son of a ***** you know.
as a teacher, you share your knowledge, not dump it to the student and expect him to grasp everything instantaneously. that's why i don't really like to tuition; because you must go down to the student's viewpoint and understand why he thinks that way before you can correct his mistake. which is often a long and painful process.
which is obviously something that HE doesn't seem to know how to do.
i've half a mind to flame him online. but i'm not dropping to his level. not yet at least. until he pisses me off further...
anyway since i'm going back to sch, less lessons with him. thank goodness =.=
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on a completely different note...a nice emo song. heard it on bai wan da ge xing and got addicted ever since.
囚鸟---张宇
词:十一郎 曲:张宇
我是被你囚禁的鸟
已经忘了天有多高
如果离开你给我的小小城堡
不知还有谁能依靠
我是被你囚禁的鸟
得到的爱越来越少
看着你的笑在别人眼中燃烧
我却要不到一个拥抱
我像是一个你可有可无的影子
冷冷地看着你说谎的样子
这撩乱的城市
容不下我的痴
是什么让你这样迷恋这样的放肆
我像是一个你可有可无的影子
和寂寞交换着悲伤的心事
对爱无计可施
这无味的日子
眼泪是唯一的奢侈...
张宇 and his wife make a perfect songwriter/composer duo. i like their musical style; got hooked on the emo-ness.
lol.
or maybe its just me =.=
Friday, July 31, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
The Pensieve
lots of things happened today, need to keep all these memories...
*points wand at my temple and extracts silvery-white substance, then deposits it into the Pensieve*
went to work early in the morning, planning to slack my way till 12 when i knock off and hand in my temp pass. then Boss asked me to stay till 1pm coz the permstaff had some tea session and there was lack of personnel manning the phone(so much so they have to get margaretha on the line.lol.) so i stayed. received a very weird and incomprehensible call from james @ MDA.
James: do you have an officer named samantha koh?
Me: Er...but she has resigned...
James: oh, but there used to be an officer by that name?
Me: Yea, but...
James: Okay thanks bye.
leaving me abit stunned and abit wth? and i kid you not sis, i'm serious; james DID call and ask if you used to work there. for reasons i can't fathom. LOL.
so when i left there wasn't any permstaff around. jitao just wrote a note and placed my IRAS possessions(which is like only calculator and temp pass) on mythi's desk.
and so i left.
after 8 months.
can't say it felt like ORD. i have much better vibes about level 21 than ladang camp. LOL. and actually, other than those irritating Talking-Pigeons(T/P) and the oh-so-holy Boss, the job's quite nice. at least, it is to me (:
took a long train and bus ride to NUS, during which i received a msg from mythi saying she forgot to pass me the farewell card! *sniffs* lol.okay la fake emo. which means i'll have to make a trip back to iras someday to collect it. and i'm gonna email the Boss and request for testimonial from her too. hehe.
after 20min of horlan-ness in NUS, i finally reached MPSH1. and luckily for me i saw jiawei who helped me to erhem 'advance' erhem 'in the' erhem 'queue'. completed matriculation and collected all my new cards. saw buddy and his family shopping for laptops. then headed to the cca fair and surprise surprise, i saw tashrif! senior from BMT, from 40th Advanced Saikang Learner Course (ASLC). haven't seen him for a long long time. and also got conned into putting my name down for NUSCO. oh well. just go there see see and maybe will join? LOL.
couldn't find NUS geyao though. they kinda disappeared from the face of the earth with no website/outdated blog. grr. never mind. will go and find out again.
then went Science Fac to hand it the form and transcripts. that place is a freaking maze man! walked in circles until i found the CORRECT block CORRECT level CORRECT dept.zzz.
and so a new start, new beginning approaching...6 more days...
*points wand at my temple and extracts silvery-white substance, then deposits it into the Pensieve*
went to work early in the morning, planning to slack my way till 12 when i knock off and hand in my temp pass. then Boss asked me to stay till 1pm coz the permstaff had some tea session and there was lack of personnel manning the phone(so much so they have to get margaretha on the line.lol.) so i stayed. received a very weird and incomprehensible call from james @ MDA.
James: do you have an officer named samantha koh?
Me: Er...but she has resigned...
James: oh, but there used to be an officer by that name?
Me: Yea, but...
James: Okay thanks bye.
leaving me abit stunned and abit wth? and i kid you not sis, i'm serious; james DID call and ask if you used to work there. for reasons i can't fathom. LOL.
so when i left there wasn't any permstaff around. jitao just wrote a note and placed my IRAS possessions(which is like only calculator and temp pass) on mythi's desk.
and so i left.
after 8 months.
can't say it felt like ORD. i have much better vibes about level 21 than ladang camp. LOL. and actually, other than those irritating Talking-Pigeons(T/P) and the oh-so-holy Boss, the job's quite nice. at least, it is to me (:
took a long train and bus ride to NUS, during which i received a msg from mythi saying she forgot to pass me the farewell card! *sniffs* lol.okay la fake emo. which means i'll have to make a trip back to iras someday to collect it. and i'm gonna email the Boss and request for testimonial from her too. hehe.
after 20min of horlan-ness in NUS, i finally reached MPSH1. and luckily for me i saw jiawei who helped me to erhem 'advance' erhem 'in the' erhem 'queue'. completed matriculation and collected all my new cards. saw buddy and his family shopping for laptops. then headed to the cca fair and surprise surprise, i saw tashrif! senior from BMT, from 40th Advanced Saikang Learner Course (ASLC). haven't seen him for a long long time. and also got conned into putting my name down for NUSCO. oh well. just go there see see and maybe will join? LOL.
couldn't find NUS geyao though. they kinda disappeared from the face of the earth with no website/outdated blog. grr. never mind. will go and find out again.
then went Science Fac to hand it the form and transcripts. that place is a freaking maze man! walked in circles until i found the CORRECT block CORRECT level CORRECT dept.zzz.
and so a new start, new beginning approaching...6 more days...
Saturday, July 25, 2009
School ramblings...
Remember that what you believe will depend very much on what you are.
Noah Porter
the past few days have been a chore, shuttling between home, NUS and my tuition kid's place. crazy amount of time spent on transport.
and trips to NUS have been disturbing. the more info i get, the more i realise how much research i need to do. which is zzz. like planning which modules to take other those alrdy allocated to year 1 students. like needing to ensure that the module i choose do not clash in timings with other modules, do not clash in examination dates/times, that it's something that i find interesting and hence should be able to score...etc etc...
also need to apply for CSP, which, hopefully if i'm shortlisted for the program, means i don't need to bid for the LSM and breadth modules anymore. please let me get in...
at first glance, the ChE timetable looks really appealing. but after adding all the timings/modules that i have in mind, it becomes really screwed up. like maybe lessons till 8pm?which is like wth?which prof conducts lectures till 8pm la?don't they need to go home and rest?
nutty professors.
maybe i'll take up shaun's invitation to stay over at his hall on those 8pm-ending days. beats reaching home at 10pm and waking up at 7am again just to trudge to school again.
argh.
on a separate note, FoE is just saturated with old friends and comrades that i haven't seen in ages. the guys i mean. from VS, VJ and during training in army. at least there are familiar faces. feels better not to be the only person going through all these =X
one step at a time. next up: matriculation and bidding.
Noah Porter
the past few days have been a chore, shuttling between home, NUS and my tuition kid's place. crazy amount of time spent on transport.
and trips to NUS have been disturbing. the more info i get, the more i realise how much research i need to do. which is zzz. like planning which modules to take other those alrdy allocated to year 1 students. like needing to ensure that the module i choose do not clash in timings with other modules, do not clash in examination dates/times, that it's something that i find interesting and hence should be able to score...etc etc...
also need to apply for CSP, which, hopefully if i'm shortlisted for the program, means i don't need to bid for the LSM and breadth modules anymore. please let me get in...
at first glance, the ChE timetable looks really appealing. but after adding all the timings/modules that i have in mind, it becomes really screwed up. like maybe lessons till 8pm?which is like wth?which prof conducts lectures till 8pm la?don't they need to go home and rest?
nutty professors.
maybe i'll take up shaun's invitation to stay over at his hall on those 8pm-ending days. beats reaching home at 10pm and waking up at 7am again just to trudge to school again.
argh.
on a separate note, FoE is just saturated with old friends and comrades that i haven't seen in ages. the guys i mean. from VS, VJ and during training in army. at least there are familiar faces. feels better not to be the only person going through all these =X
one step at a time. next up: matriculation and bidding.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Occlumens, legilimens and Horcruxes
spoilers ahead for those who haven't watched half-blood prince.
well honestly it wasn't as good as i expected it to be. was kinda disappointed when i walked out of the cinema.
partially not the director's fault, because half-blood prince is omfg 607 pages long and he has to summarise that into 135 minutes, so you would expect him to skip some details. and it's widely known that jk rowling wrote half-blood prince as a prelude and bridge to the deathly hallows, the last book of the series. in fact the only significant thing happening in the book was the death of dumbledore, so the director had to build up to this not-very-exciting and anticlimax climax.(does that even make sense?)
that said, certain aspects could have been better and unimportant parts could have been cut out. like the burying of aragog and use of felix felicis, which was fun to read but prolly not so important in the grand scope of things. and they cut out the final quidditch match, as well as the final battle between the death eaters and members of the order, which was of paramount importance and could have erased the anticlimax feeling. AND the ending was horrible.abrupt and absolutely anti-climical.zzz.
snape sucked in his role; simply not nasty and angsty enough for his meaty role. but i liked rupert grint!his lovesick expression was uber funny lol!
next movie: g i joe!if i have the time to watch it that is...=X
sometimes, we must learn to appreciate life for what it is, instead of what it can be.
well honestly it wasn't as good as i expected it to be. was kinda disappointed when i walked out of the cinema.
partially not the director's fault, because half-blood prince is omfg 607 pages long and he has to summarise that into 135 minutes, so you would expect him to skip some details. and it's widely known that jk rowling wrote half-blood prince as a prelude and bridge to the deathly hallows, the last book of the series. in fact the only significant thing happening in the book was the death of dumbledore, so the director had to build up to this not-very-exciting and anticlimax climax.(does that even make sense?)
that said, certain aspects could have been better and unimportant parts could have been cut out. like the burying of aragog and use of felix felicis, which was fun to read but prolly not so important in the grand scope of things. and they cut out the final quidditch match, as well as the final battle between the death eaters and members of the order, which was of paramount importance and could have erased the anticlimax feeling. AND the ending was horrible.abrupt and absolutely anti-climical.zzz.
snape sucked in his role; simply not nasty and angsty enough for his meaty role. but i liked rupert grint!his lovesick expression was uber funny lol!
next movie: g i joe!if i have the time to watch it that is...=X
sometimes, we must learn to appreciate life for what it is, instead of what it can be.
Monday, July 20, 2009
When monopoly is disastrous...
A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
Herm Albright
Just a random quote that i saw. basically means it's better to be positive about things; people will see and appreciate the effort you are putting in.
going to be a busy busy week ahead. working again tomorrow, then probably watching half-blood prince at night. wed will be half day followed by a trip down to NUS for a program briefing. thurs, driving lesson plus outing of The Fantastic Four (LOL cool term huh?(: anyone volunteering to be jessica alba??HAHA!) friday will be spent in NUS(again!) for welcome tea/module briefing.
zzz.
sounds packed.
and i got persuaded by jaws to stay an additional day so last day will be next tues just before registration at NUS(again! grr)
it's weird/amazing/interesting how things get put into perspective upon returning to s'pore from another country. it's like those few days away from this 'red dot' can help one to do some self-reflection and serious thinking. at least i did. and i know some of my friends have too. i found myself pondering on certain ideals and relationships that i used to hold dear, and suddenly they didn't seem so indispensable anymore. of course, they remain important, but just not so crucial anymore. life shouldn't be so one-dimensional. one can't live his/her life for one dream or one person. no dream/person is SO important to devote ALL your time and effort into.
consider this: if you, one day, lose that dream/person, will you lose the motivation to carry on? will you still be able to drag yourself through the vigours of everyday life if you lose that ONE thing that defines you?
Nothing should monopolise your heart and mind. Yes, it may play a larger part then most, but don't let it rule you.
Pain lies ahead if you do. Trust me.
anyway i'm glad i have sorted out all my thoughts before the start of school. all those stupid nonsense running through my head was really beginning to wear me out and now that i have thought things through, my mind's a lot calmer and clearer now. well...better thinking through things now then in uni where time is of essence.
PS: need new wax/clay.zzz.but damn lazy to buy.
Herm Albright
Just a random quote that i saw. basically means it's better to be positive about things; people will see and appreciate the effort you are putting in.
going to be a busy busy week ahead. working again tomorrow, then probably watching half-blood prince at night. wed will be half day followed by a trip down to NUS for a program briefing. thurs, driving lesson plus outing of The Fantastic Four (LOL cool term huh?(: anyone volunteering to be jessica alba??HAHA!) friday will be spent in NUS(again!) for welcome tea/module briefing.
zzz.
sounds packed.
and i got persuaded by jaws to stay an additional day so last day will be next tues just before registration at NUS(again! grr)
it's weird/amazing/interesting how things get put into perspective upon returning to s'pore from another country. it's like those few days away from this 'red dot' can help one to do some self-reflection and serious thinking. at least i did. and i know some of my friends have too. i found myself pondering on certain ideals and relationships that i used to hold dear, and suddenly they didn't seem so indispensable anymore. of course, they remain important, but just not so crucial anymore. life shouldn't be so one-dimensional. one can't live his/her life for one dream or one person. no dream/person is SO important to devote ALL your time and effort into.
consider this: if you, one day, lose that dream/person, will you lose the motivation to carry on? will you still be able to drag yourself through the vigours of everyday life if you lose that ONE thing that defines you?
Nothing should monopolise your heart and mind. Yes, it may play a larger part then most, but don't let it rule you.
Pain lies ahead if you do. Trust me.
anyway i'm glad i have sorted out all my thoughts before the start of school. all those stupid nonsense running through my head was really beginning to wear me out and now that i have thought things through, my mind's a lot calmer and clearer now. well...better thinking through things now then in uni where time is of essence.
PS: need new wax/clay.zzz.but damn lazy to buy.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
转移.爱情
把一个人的温暖
转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样
享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光
握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转
等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站
想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢?
my all time favourite song (: never fails to make me feel better. about everything.
and my chronic headache is back. sigh...got so bad i didn't even go for guanyue outing last night. sorry peeps for pangseh-ing =X. next time definitely go okays?(:
zzz. depressed.
转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样
享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光
握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转
等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站
想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢?
my all time favourite song (: never fails to make me feel better. about everything.
and my chronic headache is back. sigh...got so bad i didn't even go for guanyue outing last night. sorry peeps for pangseh-ing =X. next time definitely go okays?(:
zzz. depressed.
Monday, July 13, 2009
a typical monday...zzz
busy busy day today. as per normal on mondays. =X
after 7.5hrs of listening to calls, re-copying my notes for my tutee and helping janice to print out enough bills equivalent to cutting down 1 hectare of trees, i thought 5pm was the end.
but NOO.
my crazy tutee's mum called up ranting at me and literally forcing me to tutor her son TODAY at 7pm(her call was at 5.10pm). like wth. i ain't your dog madam. i have better things to do than tutoring your precious son, especially when you give me only 2 hours of notice and speak to me with that freaking harsh tone.
i don't owe you anything.
then had one quite complex tax computation case that spoke to me earlier today, but huiping happened to pick up her 2nd call. assisted her and mdm sum to derive the figure and appease the lawyer. lol. seriously it's fun to solve the computations. especially when you solve the 'problem' and get the correct answer. =D (but my colleagues say i'm insane =X)
tied up some loose ends in the nus application thingys, left only the forms to fill in. grr. hate administrative details like these. drive me crazy =P. and i should be resigning on 22nd =X. since i have nothing to do from mon to wed, doesn't it make practical sense to earn some money instead of twiddling my thumbs at home? lol.
爱相随---周华健
别想你 忍不住 我提醒自己
伤了心 有些事也要过去
心很痛 痛的不想再做我自己
别回头 情已去 缘已尽
很想你 也不是因为失去你
爱了你 用尽我全心全力
一生情 只为这一次与你相遇
情难了 难再续 难再醒
人分飞 爱相随 那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰 我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不後悔 我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情 你给了谁
很想你 也不是因为失去你
爱了你 用尽我全心全力
一生情 只为这一次与你相遇
情难了 难再续 难再醒
人分飞 爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰 我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不後悔 我又怎么有路可退
我如何面对
人分飞 爱相随 那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰 我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不後悔 我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情 你给了谁?
retro song!华健's old songs owns=)
after 7.5hrs of listening to calls, re-copying my notes for my tutee and helping janice to print out enough bills equivalent to cutting down 1 hectare of trees, i thought 5pm was the end.
but NOO.
my crazy tutee's mum called up ranting at me and literally forcing me to tutor her son TODAY at 7pm(her call was at 5.10pm). like wth. i ain't your dog madam. i have better things to do than tutoring your precious son, especially when you give me only 2 hours of notice and speak to me with that freaking harsh tone.
i don't owe you anything.
then had one quite complex tax computation case that spoke to me earlier today, but huiping happened to pick up her 2nd call. assisted her and mdm sum to derive the figure and appease the lawyer. lol. seriously it's fun to solve the computations. especially when you solve the 'problem' and get the correct answer. =D (but my colleagues say i'm insane =X)
tied up some loose ends in the nus application thingys, left only the forms to fill in. grr. hate administrative details like these. drive me crazy =P. and i should be resigning on 22nd =X. since i have nothing to do from mon to wed, doesn't it make practical sense to earn some money instead of twiddling my thumbs at home? lol.
爱相随---周华健
别想你 忍不住 我提醒自己
伤了心 有些事也要过去
心很痛 痛的不想再做我自己
别回头 情已去 缘已尽
很想你 也不是因为失去你
爱了你 用尽我全心全力
一生情 只为这一次与你相遇
情难了 难再续 难再醒
人分飞 爱相随 那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰 我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不後悔 我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情 你给了谁
很想你 也不是因为失去你
爱了你 用尽我全心全力
一生情 只为这一次与你相遇
情难了 难再续 难再醒
人分飞 爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰 我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不後悔 我又怎么有路可退
我如何面对
人分飞 爱相随 那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰 我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不後悔 我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情 你给了谁?
retro song!华健's old songs owns=)
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