Friday, April 23, 2010

cynical cynical me.

明天过后/吴克群

你问我
明天过后又如何
冰天雪地里我们怎么活着

我笑了
笑你太傻又太笨
但自己心中却确定了

我小心抱着你的手就温暖了
睡着或醒着
我的手为你加温
就算明天崩塌又如何
我们手握着
外面天再冷全都有我负责

也许我有时太傻太呆又太闷
甜言蜜语不是我的风格
但请相信
这心从来不会少一分
多嘴的人原来从不会认真...

this song was the theme song for the taiwan release of the movie The Day After Tomorrow. was reminded of the movie when i heard this song... rather sweet lyrics, just wished the singer sung better =S.

feeling very cynical today. went to school early for eg exam. notwithstanding the result of that module, at least the exam for it is over. the only time i'll care about it is when the exam results are released. got back results for Position Paper and Oral Defence. Probably considered an average mark, so i guess the best mark i can hope for it is B+? i have never heard of anybody getting an A+ for eg1413 -.- or is it because that is non-existent? coz if it's so, then statistically speaking it is more difficult to get a good grade for it and hence a cap-downer.

met yuern before the exam, funny as usual =D. was telling me about his impending ICT =P. well, i thank my lucky stars that i (most probably) don't have to go for ICT until the end of my university studies. which reminds me, need to take my IPPT during the holidays...zzz.

And i'm going back iras to work after the exams and after the genting trip =D yay. don't mind going back there again, especially since i don't really need to learn much more (probably brush up on my tax knowledge, abit out of touch). steady source of income, at least?

And there's the main comm selection the day after i return from genting. abit coincidental. wondering if i should apply...hmm.not too sure if i have enough time to spare next sem and next next to warrant a place in the main comm. will decide after the exams i guess. but i think...it's unlikely. i'm interested in performing, probably not so much the planning and logistics part of it. seeing how joel and ko worked for emerge, *shudders*, can't really see myself doing that much for voices.

1 down, 5 more to go. let's get rolling!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

it consumes...

慢慢/张学友

慢慢慢慢没有感觉
慢慢慢慢我被忽略
你何忍看我憔悴
没有一点点安慰
慢慢慢慢心变成铁
慢慢慢慢我被拒绝
你何忍远走高飞
要我如何收拾这爱的残缺

a deeply emo song, but i like it(: very challenging though...=P

staying at home is kinda distracting, especially on sat when my parents and sis are at home...on tv, chat chat...productivity not max at home. may try to study at esplanade library tomorrow...should be fun=)

feeling very sian today. as i trudge through the tons of boring notes, no ray of light lies in front. who, then, to bring a smile to my weary-hardened face?

Friday, April 16, 2010

experience and rage.

杨宗纬 - 洋葱

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

music calms and soothes my soul...=)

had my first experience of singing consecutively for about 1.5 hours yesterday. quite interesting. my stamina's getting better, but the strange thing was the more i sang, the better my condition was. the first few songs were quite horrible -.- . but i challenged myself with a few hard songs, ie. Jay's songs. surprised myself that i could pull it off. haha. maybe it was coz joel lowered the key to a nice comfortable range for me=P. hoho.

travelled all the way to school for a 2hr EG lesson. my least favourite and least confident module. oh wells. pray that whoever's marking my script is lenient, this being the first exam and all. lol.

and i just discovered that i do work faster when i'm hungry and pissed off. super potent combination. a sure-fire way to get me fired up 0.o like today...muahha...if this theory works, african kids should be the cleverest around=P. LOL.

okay i'm talking crap. gotta do stereochem tomorrow, my least favourite part of organic chem. geez...

anyway, the song above is one of my all time favourites. 洋葱, very meaningful. 你会鼻酸, 你会流泪, 只要你能听到我, 看到我的全心全意...

start of the imba week ahead: full throttle!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

finally, no more CAs, and i can concentrate on doing my revision for finals. maybe i've been a little too harsh on myself, keep feeling this need to push harder. and luck hasn't really been on my side recently either -.-

Grr. 2 more weeks 2 more weeks. It's this period that you really want it to be over, but when it comes you feel an unprecedented feeling of dread. Geez, just a random bout of depression...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

pre-exam stress

had oral defence and nation-building in s'pore CA2 today. two in one day -.- i thought OD was fine, just answered the questions posed accordingly. not too sure whether my answer was comprehensive enough, but good enough to get an average grade i suppose.

then had SS test. not sure whether my essay was really answering the question, but i just spammed everything i knew and tried to make it sound like i was answering the question. ah wells. hopefully can get a B+?

2 more weeks to finals. need to concentrate now. focus energy focus energy.

meanwhile, a very nice song...

下雨天/ 南拳妈妈

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

i remember sam recommended me this song some time ago, but didn't really like this song this much till recently. watched an episode of xing guang and got hooked=P.

very meaningful lyrics too. when it's raining, missing someone just gets worse and worse...how true...=P
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though we haven't been spending alot of personal time together, and haven't been going to our favourite haunts, don't worry dear...another 3 weeks=) i just hope that when that time comes, you'll want to spend more time with me instead of with your friends...

i just want this sem to end end end...-.-



Friday, March 26, 2010

Exhaustion

feeling tired recently. very very tired. feels like so much work to revise, so much to do. one more month plus to go, before a long long break.

sigh. seems like nothing much seems to be going my way lately...bright spots fewer and fewer these days...is it the stress? the weather? or the hunger?

zzz...shall engross myself in work again.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

emerge 10

overwhelming success.

for some reason, everyone was 80% during the tech run (or semi tech run, because we didn't run through everything. i didn't even had a chance to do sound check on my mike before the real thing started. in fact, i didn't practise the song with the band until the real performance at night.) but 110% during the real performance.

normally we practise 100% for rehearsals and try not to let the standard drop too low during the real thing. interesting thing was, we did better for the real thing =O

and those songs that were anticipated to be good was a shade off their best (though it was still good), but there were songs that truly went beyond expectations and beyond. was particularly impressed with 千年之恋 and 我们的故事...totally brought the house down.

wasn't really nervous throughout the course of the concert, even before my songs. we arranged to have a chair in the middle of the stage for 病态, but due to some screw ups, as usual for live performances, it didn't happen. so ben and i just did some impromptu stuff like freezing on stage until it was time for us to sing. lol. actually the impromptu effect is better, i thought=P.

lesson learnt: sometimes it's better not to over-rehearse the performance sequence (i only rehearsed once). unexpected stuffs happen on stage, due to logistic errors, but hey, being a performer is to know how to deal with circumstances too, not just knowing what the plan was. in fact i was quite impressed with ben and myself's innovation=P. the audience obviously didn't know what was the original plan, so we just acted natural, and i thought it was fine.

in fact i enjoyed myself.

after that the nerves were all gone. no fear, no apprehension, just wanted to own the stage. haha.

for my solo song, really didn't expect such a big response from the crowd. proved that my decision to put 童话's chorus before the main song was a good one. after narisa's first intro note and my first half of 童话's chorus, i got some cheers from the crowd who recognised the song, and sang along with me =D. haha. i chose a good intro=D.

and i thought i did the song pretty well. the last chorus was stirring, i think. or at least i made a concerted attempt to make it powerful and full. it's not often that a slow song gets the time of the day at a club like zirca, and certainly not common that it gets cheers from the audience. i was rather taken aback by the audience's reaction; there were people singing along with me! even though i didn't know them.. i like the feeling of singing to a group of people who don't know you and hence they won't be supporting you because you are their friend, but instead supporting you because they appreciate your voice and performance. having a response from a totally foreign audience is far better than from people you know, goes to show if the skill is there anot. kinda cool, coz you don't see this phenomena in s'pore coz we are just too passive.

must thank senior band, the last chorus's arrangement was as powerful as it could be and i built on their power to bring out last part of the song. though jim came in earlier than he should(=P), but i think the last line of chorus that everyone was worried about was not bad. a fitting conclusion=)

can't wait to see the video for my item, want to hear how i did. got some people that came to congratulate me after i completed the song, including joel, so i think it was quite well done? weihao called it 'my moment'. haha. the moment of truth, or the moment of emergence?

the only thing i was worried about was the change in tone, since i was taking over from Super Number One which is a whole different song as compared to mine. fortunately the audience were receptive. boosted my self-confidence significantly=D

in a sense, it was lucky both my songs were in the front, when the audience were still wide awake and more active. and also, could watch the performance from the front! the dance songs were well done, goes to show how much effort they put in. particularly liked 国王王后, it was boomz, quoting joel's initial expectations for them. and their dancing was zai. super zai. very in sync, and it was uber high at the end, fitting conclusion for the production.

and senior band was on form la! super on form...didn't hear any audible mistakes at all...and towards the end, with all the guitar solos, it was high man! i liked the guitarist's interaction with the audience...engaging=D

to put it in perspective, i think it was better than gefang's gethigh production. vocalist and performance wise. for some (weird) reason, everyone was on form...the feeling and audience reaction was superb.=)

till emerge 11 then. but then again, i might not performing again, depends on how packed my timetable is next year. but even so, joel, kee onn and marcus will most likely not be around anymore. the core producers played a huge role in this success, i feel. pushing us to do better (though i wasn't very receptive to it. oops=P), made the overall production a success.

back to lectures and chionging tutorials then. finals are looming=P