Monday, August 9, 2010

and there it all begins again

well, today's the last day of the three month long holidays and i've fallen sick. how nice. i fell sick like 3 times during the course of these 3 months, hopefully won't be sick again for a long long time.

things to accomplish during the new semester:
1) apply for SEP to US in sem 5!
2) find good attachments/internships at oil/product companies or banks/big four.
3) study hard and maintain my CAP.

and of course not forgetting, spending time with my dear=) that is of paramount importance=) walking down siglap road yesterday without your hand in mine was a weird feeling =X
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new friends come, old friends go. unfortunately, there isn't anything much i can do about it. as they get to know more people, get exposed to more things, they'll drift further and further away. to me, those that stay are those that'll be your lifelong friends. my lifelong friends. friends who will stay no matter what.

and so, one or two of these are sufficient=)

i don't lament the loss of friends, because it's their choice and their path to take; who am i to keep them? regardless of whether it's a misunderstanding, or whether it is purely because we've drifted apart, if they feel it's best for them, so be it.

i don't know how the future is like, but i would just wanna hold those people close to me closer. like my dear, those true friends...=)

regis-advenio-nunc

Saturday, July 31, 2010

ciao

so i'm gonna be off to my next camp. and bidding starts on monday. and i have a performance on monday too.

holy.

life's like that man.

Monday, July 26, 2010

it takes 1 afternoon to make your day, but just 1 call to destroy everything...

well contrary to the title of this post, i'm gonna start off with something happy first=)

had a lovely night yesterday, spent with my dear=) well actually every night spent with her is lovely, just that yesterday more so=) strange that time passes soo fast everytime it comes to this particular day of the month, but it's okay...i always look forward to the one next month=)

and then my cors stuffs are almost settled. after two calls to the admin IC, apparently by tomorrow, they'll get the prof to waive off the prerequisite so that we can bid for that mod. and also received confirmation that the life sci mods will be preallocated, so no worries there...what's left is the sixth and (hopefully) last module. toying with the idea of taking eg2401 (and i may die taking that) or an arts gem. politics seem interesting...

and to the unholy call i had today. man, i realise i have limitless tolerance dealing with imbeciles, but if and only if i have NO CHOICE but to tahan them. okay, granted that he was right in his argument that everything isn't his fault and its the gahment statboards that screwed up (or rather, just a single officer. it's unfair to say that the statboard is inefficient just because of a single civil servant).

i pity the shithole he is in, that he received the shock of his life to open his letterbox and see a bill waiting for him, when he thought he paid up in full. and i did, throughout the course of the whole conversation, did assure him multiple times that i'm gonna stop any penalties whatsoever for him.

well, that was before he started complaining about the hassle, complain about the service, complain about HDB, complain about the way we bill, complain yada yada yada... before singaporeans complain about the gahment, or the way gahment agencies do things, they oughta take a cold hard look at themselves. i think many of us are too used to having things their way, that when they encounter setbacks or things that happen not to go their ideal path, they just go screaming and screaming.

compare yourselves to other people in other countries. you think the customer service is gonna talk to you nicely as you rant? think about it, before you decide to launch your endless tirade at the poor fellow.

geez...sometimes, i really cannot stand my fellow countrymen..

Friday, July 23, 2010

singaporeans love to complain. i just proved i'm singaporean.

just read an interesting article off the forum in hardwarezone about property tax. there was this netizen who got uber pissed that IRAS sent her elderly mother a late payment advice demanding payment for outstanding property tax.

He claims that IRAS sent a disturbing letter to his mother, who is only the secondary owner, because his sister, the primary owner, failed to pay her tax.

His questions were: why is the govt so heartless as to force an old lady to make payment and threaten to freeze her bank account when she isn't even liable to pay it in the first place?

look at it this way: everybody has a reason to avoid paying tax. some people quote financial difficulties, some people claim they are elderly, some people claim they are overseas...etc etc. does that mean all these people don't need to pay tax?

The tax administration has a responsibility to make sure everybody in Singapore earning an income and owning a property pays their tax accordingly, with no exceptions in between. no one is an exception, and precisely because of that, everyone has to pay. if exceptions are made, people will start asking questions as to what is the rationale behind the exception, and all hell breaks loose.

I'm neither a PAP supporter, nor against the PAP. but facts speak for itself. people complain, but they should know, deep down, that this is right. this is the way to do things. don't trade things that you don't know, for things that you know already work. i mean, how do you know that if you vote in the Opposition, they will do things exactly as you want them to?

How do you know that if (a very big if) they get voted into power, they will improve conditions? improve the way of life of Singaporeans now? how do you know if they will deliver what they say instead of making things worst then they are now?

bear in mind, a lot of the Opposition MPs have scarce experience working in the public sector. do they know how IRAS work? do they know what GIC does?

passing the baton into unexperienced hands might just lead to unexpected and unwanted consequences that could, overnight, plunge the nation into political instability. my view is that, yes maybe Singapore do need some opposition MPs, just to keep a check on the political lopsidedness. but do you really want things to change from what it is now?

being used to wealth and good living conditions, can we really weather a major change in political change?

food for thought.

in short, Singaporeans just love to complain. when things are done efficiently they complain. when things are done slowly, they also complain.

which brings me to my next topic.

since i'm singaporean, i complain too.

lol..the irony.

as usual, at the start of every sem, i have to delve through the chem eng dept and the life sciences dept in order to get what i want. can't they, for once, just make sure that things are done even before i spam them with emails?-.- seems like they must always be pushed pushed pushed before they can move their sorry butts and get their work done.

and in any case, in NUS, the minority group is always disadvantaged. just because we are the minority, our interests are usually left out until the very end, or until we complain that something needs to be done.

every start of sem, it's like we have to wage a war against the dept office, before they will look at our requests.

NUS really, stands for No Use Studying.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

让一切随风...

风中风中 心里冷
吹失了梦
事未过去 就已失踪
此刻有种种心痛

心中心中 一切似空
天黑天光都似梦
迷迷惘惘 聚满心中
追踪一片冷的风

各种空虚 冷冷冷
吹起吹起风里梦
过去的心 火般灼热
今天已变了冰冻

记忆中 突然又痛
只因空虚再作弄
你似北风 吹走我梦
一切随风

haven't posted any nice songs recently. haven't had the time or mood to actually listen to new songs these few weeks. but today, as i was having my weekly dose of xing guang, came across this song sung by 閻奕格. My first impression was, why the hell is she in this competition?? she's far far too good for this. far too good. gawd. the rest of the comtestants totally pale in comparison.

began having goosebumps by the pre-chorus. it's a canto song and she isn't even cantonese, yet she brings out the meaning of the song so succinctly. i was so impressed i ripped her cover into a mp3 version. and one of the judges aptly said:' i don't understand cantonese, but i was drawn into the song by the emotion and groove of the singer. didn't need to understand the lyrics, her singing made me understand what it was all about.'

so powerful, music is. such a powerful tool.

music transcends boundaries, lingustic or otherwise. if the music and singer is good, it really doesn't matter if you understand the lyrics anot..just like most people don't understand what pavarotti is singing in italian, but you would still be impressed by him.

閻奕格 is too imba. really. everything was done to perfection, nothing too much, nothing less. kudos to her. i'm impressed. very impressed.

there comes a time for singers, when key, pitching, rhymth, breathing, grooving doesn't really matter anymore. what matters is the picture you are trying to draw, what exactly are you trying to convey...sadness, anger, happiness, lovesickness? the image, so clearly drawn by the singer, proves her capability.

in the end, it's not the basics that make music. it's not the pitching, though it forms the fundamentals of good music. it's the ability to tell a story. the ability to paint out what you are feeling right now. the ability to describe in detail the story you are about to tell.

in 閻奕格's case, such a clear picture, of a lost love, of departure. she sings, with her experiences in life.

she is my aim, the pinnacle of music.

to draw the picture, in my own colours. in my unique set of colours.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

fail fail fail.

by 10s. bloody hell. for a freaking 10s, i have to rebook, re-take leave, redo this whole damn ippt. extremely pissed off.

pissed off with myself, first and foremost. for not making the additional 10joule of energy burst to reach the finish line 10s earlier.
pissed with the PTI.
pissed with the whole system of having to do ippt in the first place.

just pissed.
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do you get this niggling feeling, that you're doing the wrong things, saying the wrong stuff? or that your best effort is never enough? or that your emphasis on life is changing?

coz i've been getting that alot recently..hmm...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

i think...

i think, i'm still a distance away from the man i want to be.
i think, i'm just like a normal person after all.
i think, i've learned the importance of having someone who understands you by your side, and i never wanna let it go.
i think, when depressing thoughts come through my mind, i need to learn how to banish them and not let it affect me.

i think, i've understood the meaning of love. perhaps, just perhaps, i'm on the path of truly understanding myself.

因为我的
让我看见这世界就在我
前..

Jansen
22/06/2010
The day when the truth dawned.