flashbacks

they say character is built from experiences. i totally agree. i think what i've been through really helped me shape my character and my way of thinking.

i realise i'm more wary of people now. trusting people less, and taking more time to gauge people's character. i guess it's kind of like a defense mechanism. when you have suffered, you remember and make sure it never happens again. there was a period when i thought i'll never trust again, but, hey, no man's an island. you can never completely close out others and live your own isolated life. fortunately, there are still people out there worth talking to and trusting.=)

on hindsight, such sombering experiences actually helped. for example, i should thank my OC, for letting me know that doing too much is actually a sin, and i should just mind my business and let things be, even though you know things aren't the way it should be.

let the past remain in the past, but the experiences remain. think nought of what could have been done, but what can be done now.

you'll be happier. at least i am.

to girl: really enjoyed the HTHT session. haha(: really glad that you trust me enough to confide in me(: and vice versa too! i think we are rather similar people: rational and we let brains dictate our actions instead of the heart.(:


努力为你改变却变不了
预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天
已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走 却 走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔...

this doesn't mean anything. i just think it's a very nice song(: music soothes my soul.