mutual? or...?

is it?

is it not?

I'm not sure. My judgement has been clouded ever since. I'll hope for the best as always, but once I take it up, it isn't so easy to put it down.

I just hope things don't happen twice. especially twice the unhappiness and dejection.

sigh.

爱情好象流沙
我不说话
等待黑暗让眼泪落下

爱情好象流沙
明知该躲它无法自拔
oh baby 是我太傻

是一再的做
一再的错 不由我
我一步一步一步一步
慢慢走向流沙...

a song by tao zhe.
so describes my feelings now. aptly.