mutual? or...?

is it?

is it not?

I'm not sure. My judgement has been clouded ever since. I'll hope for the best as always, but once I take it up, it isn't so easy to put it down.

I just hope things don't happen twice. especially twice the unhappiness and dejection.

sigh.

爱情好象流沙
我不说话
等待黑暗让眼泪落下

爱情好象流沙
明知该躲它无法自拔
oh baby 是我太傻

是一再的做
一再的错 不由我
我一步一步一步一步
慢慢走向流沙...

a song by tao zhe.
so describes my feelings now. aptly.

Singalongsong(:

thinking thinking thinking

mugging mugging mugging

singing singing singing.

without an end, there can't be a new start.

Singalongsong---方大同

I don't know what you think about me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
We could be in love, you see...

Let's sing a long song
That's not too long
It's when I think about you
Then I hear song

And you can sing along
Maybe if you don't want to
Cause baby I wrote this
I wrote this for you

In every way, you mean more to me
Then you ever know
Girl, I do my best to show these words are true
And if you like to make a song
And be in perfect harmony with me
Oh I'll find the greatest words to sing
So we could write our own romantic thing...

this song rox.fullstop=D

The Truth

who said uni life is gonna be a breeze after jc life ought to be shot.

seriously.

nothing could be further from the truth. lol. LOTS of work to do. LOADS. gosh.weekly lab reports, gem assignment, weekly tuts...and the tuts must spend like 3 hrs doing that kind. not easy at all =.=

totally crazy.

THIS is crazy.

went for voices welcome tea. generally not bad. they seem like a bunch of happening people eager to make good music. and so do i (:

and so i'm quitting CO!(: realised that i don't want, and i can't, have 2 CCAs. kinda cutting my own throat.

PS: i don't know if it is worth it. i really don't. maybe in time to come i'll find out. i'll continue working hard, and maybe things will work out fine(:

it starts here.

an eventful day.

i spent a substantial amount of time worrying about what might happen today, or rather, what i anticipated would happen. but it didn't.

luckily.

i always tend to prepare myself for the worst possible outcome while remaining cheerfully hopeful that everything will turn out fine. it might not have happened today, but it's like a ticking time bomb, waiting and waiting for the most inopportune time to implode.

it will explode eventually. the thing now is to ensure damage is minimal. to everything.

went for NUS voices auditions with jasline and qinny. i thought i sang okay, not fantastic, but okay. voice was kinda tight, maybe due to nerves. as it is before any performance or audition. oh well. results out tomorrow so hope for the best(:

then went library to mug with andrew, geraldine, zhiwei and mujung. found it much more productive than doing tutorials at home. home is distracting; internet and TV VERY distracting =.= managed to do half the gem assignment and half the math tutorial. so rather productive =D

tomorrow: 1 hr of organic chem on alkanes, 2 hrs of DNA and RNA and whatever, 2 hrs of matlab =.= totally not appealing timetable.

What did I do??

oh my...

sometimes, i tend to say the wrong things.

Just...
Let bygones be bygones. i don't wanna embroil myself (or ANYONE for that matter) into any sort of rubbish anymore.

what is passe stays passe. Full-stop.
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on a happier (=.=) note, went minds with s21 peeps today! laughed till stomach ache. LOL. outings tend to release any stress/displeasure whatsoever. it's good to know that there's a group of friends who'll share the burden and help you no matter what. =D

其实我也不知道---萧煌奇

其实我也不知道
其实我也很苦恼
其实我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了紧紧的拥抱
谁能承诺天荒地老
我的苦笑
是否你能明了

其实我也不知道
其实我也很煎熬
其实我也想过放弃一切什麽都不要
缘份如此美妙
却又如此困扰
是欢笑迷宫
又像寂寞监牢
让人只想逃跑

嘿 谢谢你对我那麽好
我 常常觉得无以回报
爱 就是这麽微妙

它无法强求 它出现的时候
不必寻找...

meaningful lyrics, and emotional vocals. 萧煌奇's blind, but blessed with a wonderful voice that just has the ability to infect everyone with his emotions. fantastic(:

time, TiMe, TIME!

lots of work to cover, lots of things to do, lots of activities to participate in.

is it me or a day doesn't consist of 24hours anymore?

=.=

locard's principle!

locard's principle states that when two objects come into contact with each other, they will leave traces of contact on each other, i.e. transfer of material/evidence from one body to another.

interesting?

the founding father of forensic science(:

went to crash the forensic science GEM on friday. it was at an unholy timing of 7 to 10pm, but surprisingly no one(including me the crasher) left the lecture early. reason being this is prolly the MOST interesting lecture i have attended for the past WEEK.

Dr. Stella Tan, the course lecturer, was engaging and humorous and everything my other (PRC) lecturers AREN'T. the examples she quoted were notorious (like Huang Na and OJ Simpson) and i liked the way she brought her point across.

That forensic science will nail down the culprit, provided the forensic scientist does everything correctly =X

i'm quite sure i'm the only year 1 student there and i was sitting with a yr 2 and yr 4 =.= but hey it's good to make friends in NUS, even though they are from different faculties and the way you make them is so totally random(like grouping up to do a crossword puzzle and hence knowing the people sitting next to you)

went back school for nusco welcome tea where i saw like 50 PRCs signing up for CO. but most of them don't have CO background and thankfully the ExCo are all Singaporeans. heng.

apparently there will be a selection for instruments. hmm. if i'm not in dizi... =.=

OG gathering was fun, though the food was zzz. but had a whale of a time talking shop and playing pool. it's interesting how we never run out of topics to chat about. inherent ability to generate topics from thin air. haha(:

tomorrow: time to chiong tutorials! *puts on his most nerdy specs* should start mugging alrdy i guess. =X