The Cookie Jar

"It just so happened that I was there after everyone stuck their hands in the cookie jar and then the lights came on and I had a cookie.”

Bruce Bowen.

suddenly had to urge to blog after i saw this quote. find it quite funny(: basically trying to lament that he's unfortunate to be caught when everyone is doing it. LOL.

somehow, sundays are starting to become chiong-tutorial-and-mug-hard day. like got lots of things to revise and do. =.= yea well. okay. life of a chem engineer. or rather, life of ALL aspiring engineers out there. like a bit no life.

luckily i have my music to accompany me. have to memorise lyrics, but if it's a song i like, shouldn't be a problem. now the only thing that breaks the monotony of school is like singing. the only bright spark in boring times.

or at least, until something interesting comes along......or will it?

My Way

i'm too cowardly. i know. but this behaviour, if it is to protect myself, if it is in my best interests, is understandable, is it not?

and so he waits, waiting for the sign, that it is time. but will it come? will it take 1 second, 1 day, 1 year?

or will he have to wait forever?

the first prac session was okay. going through basics. which is actually quite useful. next week need to record a song! nice. time to train again.

流沙 comes to mind. i feel alot for this song. coz its reflective of what's actually happening. i'm sure i can bring off the essence of this song, given the way things are now.

tomorrow: to make my own notes for MLE, do CM1501 tut and chiong the challenging problems in the textbook.

Note to self: The effort you put in is proportional to the success you get. Applies to EVERYTHING. jiayou.

mutual? or...?

is it?

is it not?

I'm not sure. My judgement has been clouded ever since. I'll hope for the best as always, but once I take it up, it isn't so easy to put it down.

I just hope things don't happen twice. especially twice the unhappiness and dejection.

sigh.

爱情好象流沙
我不说话
等待黑暗让眼泪落下

爱情好象流沙
明知该躲它无法自拔
oh baby 是我太傻

是一再的做
一再的错 不由我
我一步一步一步一步
慢慢走向流沙...

a song by tao zhe.
so describes my feelings now. aptly.

Singalongsong(:

thinking thinking thinking

mugging mugging mugging

singing singing singing.

without an end, there can't be a new start.

Singalongsong---方大同

I don't know what you think about me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
We could be in love, you see...

Let's sing a long song
That's not too long
It's when I think about you
Then I hear song

And you can sing along
Maybe if you don't want to
Cause baby I wrote this
I wrote this for you

In every way, you mean more to me
Then you ever know
Girl, I do my best to show these words are true
And if you like to make a song
And be in perfect harmony with me
Oh I'll find the greatest words to sing
So we could write our own romantic thing...

this song rox.fullstop=D

The Truth

who said uni life is gonna be a breeze after jc life ought to be shot.

seriously.

nothing could be further from the truth. lol. LOTS of work to do. LOADS. gosh.weekly lab reports, gem assignment, weekly tuts...and the tuts must spend like 3 hrs doing that kind. not easy at all =.=

totally crazy.

THIS is crazy.

went for voices welcome tea. generally not bad. they seem like a bunch of happening people eager to make good music. and so do i (:

and so i'm quitting CO!(: realised that i don't want, and i can't, have 2 CCAs. kinda cutting my own throat.

PS: i don't know if it is worth it. i really don't. maybe in time to come i'll find out. i'll continue working hard, and maybe things will work out fine(:

it starts here.

an eventful day.

i spent a substantial amount of time worrying about what might happen today, or rather, what i anticipated would happen. but it didn't.

luckily.

i always tend to prepare myself for the worst possible outcome while remaining cheerfully hopeful that everything will turn out fine. it might not have happened today, but it's like a ticking time bomb, waiting and waiting for the most inopportune time to implode.

it will explode eventually. the thing now is to ensure damage is minimal. to everything.

went for NUS voices auditions with jasline and qinny. i thought i sang okay, not fantastic, but okay. voice was kinda tight, maybe due to nerves. as it is before any performance or audition. oh well. results out tomorrow so hope for the best(:

then went library to mug with andrew, geraldine, zhiwei and mujung. found it much more productive than doing tutorials at home. home is distracting; internet and TV VERY distracting =.= managed to do half the gem assignment and half the math tutorial. so rather productive =D

tomorrow: 1 hr of organic chem on alkanes, 2 hrs of DNA and RNA and whatever, 2 hrs of matlab =.= totally not appealing timetable.

What did I do??

oh my...

sometimes, i tend to say the wrong things.

Just...
Let bygones be bygones. i don't wanna embroil myself (or ANYONE for that matter) into any sort of rubbish anymore.

what is passe stays passe. Full-stop.
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on a happier (=.=) note, went minds with s21 peeps today! laughed till stomach ache. LOL. outings tend to release any stress/displeasure whatsoever. it's good to know that there's a group of friends who'll share the burden and help you no matter what. =D

其实我也不知道---萧煌奇

其实我也不知道
其实我也很苦恼
其实我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了紧紧的拥抱
谁能承诺天荒地老
我的苦笑
是否你能明了

其实我也不知道
其实我也很煎熬
其实我也想过放弃一切什麽都不要
缘份如此美妙
却又如此困扰
是欢笑迷宫
又像寂寞监牢
让人只想逃跑

嘿 谢谢你对我那麽好
我 常常觉得无以回报
爱 就是这麽微妙

它无法强求 它出现的时候
不必寻找...

meaningful lyrics, and emotional vocals. 萧煌奇's blind, but blessed with a wonderful voice that just has the ability to infect everyone with his emotions. fantastic(: