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it's 2am and i'm not asleep. i have a lecture at 8am tomorrow. i have to wake at 6am. fml.

am listening to a song by eason chan. as you may (or may not) know, eason chan is an extremely brillant singer who sings with a ton of innate emotions. his songs are capable of digging out your innermost emotions and iterate them 'n' times, like a 'while' loop. especially so when you're feeling rather down, and listening to his songs in the middle of the night. just makes me feel so...emo (for the lack of a better word). simply listening to his story through his songs makes me feel better(:

K歌之王---陈奕迅

我以为要是唱的用心良苦
你总会对我多点在乎

我以为虽然爱情已成往事
千言万语 说出来可以互相安抚

期待你感动真实的我们难相处
写词的让我 唱出你要的幸福
谁曾经感动分手的关头才懂得
离开排行榜 更铭心刻骨

我已经相信有些人 我永远不必等
所以我明白 在灯火栏珊处为什么会哭
你不会相信 嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白 我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐

那是醉生梦死才能熬成的苦
爱如潮水 我忘了我是谁
至少还有你哭...

我想唱一首歌 给我们祝福
唱完了我会一个人住
我愿意试着了解从此以后
拥挤的房间一个人的心 有多孤独

让我 断了气 铁了心 爱的过火
一回头就找到出路
让我成为了无情的k歌之王
麦克风都让我征服
想不到你 若无其事的说
这样滥情何苦?

我想来一个吻别 作为结束
想不到你只说我不许哭
不让我领悟...

the first taste

the first taste of exams in 3 years. was rather bad =.= well, knew matlab was a killer all the while and since everyone is screwed, it sort of evens out. maths was, well, disappointing. made 2 careless mistakes which irritates me more than not knowing how to do.

oh wells, another one on thurs and one more on sat before i can finally take a breather.

another reprieve is voices. i just feel like going even though its in the midst of midterms. singing helps me to destress, as well as helps me release some pent up emotions. in ways more than studies.

sometimes i do wonder.
sometimes i do overthink. about all the what ifs.
sometimes, i do ponder if i want to hear that elusive answer.

it takes two to clap, but only one to dream...

when a good song makes a gloomy day bright again...

一首简单的歌---王力宏

我一直
在思考
让你了解我的好
却忘了常常对你微笑

失去的
忘记的
我会尽力去弥补
你是我最珍贵的财富

写一首简单的歌
让你的心情快乐
爱情就像一条河
难免会碰到波折

这一首简单的歌
并没有什么独特
好像我
那么的平凡却又深刻...

put my music player on shuffle mode and came across this song...forgot how nice it was(: sweet sweet lyrics...and suits my range too!haha. shall sing it when i have a chance=P leehom's songs are always very nice=D

countdown: 1 day to go back school. for midterms. arghh. there we go again. didn't have time to really rest during this 'supposed' holiday. yeah right man holiday. holidays shouldn't be spent chionging mugging. i think i'm more tired out during this hols than during normal school term. not to forget, still got gem assignments (two of them! want to kill us ar??) and weekly lab reports to submit.

that's a bright thought.=.=

but never mind. i'm sure i'll ride through this.

i know, therefore i can and i must...regis advenio nunc!

of great meaning and significance...

blogpost about yesterday's gathering and today's not so boring day at home!

went for iceman gathering yest!lol...was quite fun...reached at 2 plus and mugged(oops=X) till 6 when the rest arrived. and for once, a really good bbq! haha. the food was really cooked, which is ever so rare in a bbq.

and my og peeps just loves dunking people into the pool =.= LOL. but nvm it's all in the name of fun=D.

reached home at 2am plus, slightly tipsy, rather exhilarated, but with my mind thinking of lots of stuff. lots of issues that i feel should be handled with care, and as soon as possible. everything will be settled (hopefully) by after midterms, and on the day of performance.

speaking of which, i'll be singing 我不难过 by 燕姿 and Singalongsong by 方大同...on hindsight, shouldn't have chosen 我不难过. such a hard song =.= abit hard to settle the pitch. but nvm! i'll still do my best. Singalongsong has a very strong significance to it, so i'm glad i got that song=).

a very strong significance indeed.....

i pray. i dream. and i look to the future...

if only you knew...

祈祷---李岗霖

无能为力
祈祷着再次将你拥入怀中
手指冰冷的温度
无情命运
任性的捉弄

无能为力
祈祷着你能感觉我的温柔
用尽力气狠狠的
把你看够
舍不得放手

我还爱不够...

the past few days have been a dream...a dream from which i hope i will not wake (: happy hours, even while studying, seem to pass extra fast.

your destiny is ahead. take it. it's yours.

flashbacks

they say character is built from experiences. i totally agree. i think what i've been through really helped me shape my character and my way of thinking.

i realise i'm more wary of people now. trusting people less, and taking more time to gauge people's character. i guess it's kind of like a defense mechanism. when you have suffered, you remember and make sure it never happens again. there was a period when i thought i'll never trust again, but, hey, no man's an island. you can never completely close out others and live your own isolated life. fortunately, there are still people out there worth talking to and trusting.=)

on hindsight, such sombering experiences actually helped. for example, i should thank my OC, for letting me know that doing too much is actually a sin, and i should just mind my business and let things be, even though you know things aren't the way it should be.

let the past remain in the past, but the experiences remain. think nought of what could have been done, but what can be done now.

you'll be happier. at least i am.

to girl: really enjoyed the HTHT session. haha(: really glad that you trust me enough to confide in me(: and vice versa too! i think we are rather similar people: rational and we let brains dictate our actions instead of the heart.(:


努力为你改变却变不了
预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天
已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走 却 走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔...

this doesn't mean anything. i just think it's a very nice song(: music soothes my soul.

the Blower's daughter...

this is a crazy week. week 6. numerous submissions, assignments, labs, lab reports to do, tutorials to complete...

sometimes i wish i can just slack and don't do...work is like never-ending, forever an onslaught of assignments and tutorials and projects etc...sucks to be an engineer, sucks even more to be a chemical engineer, (sucks)^Inf especially if u are a chem engin student trying to get a life, trying to pursue his dreams, trying to obtain good enough grades, all without having to sacrifice too much...

midterm break is next week, but after that is midterms. *drumroll* means more mugging, less rest, lesser sleep, lesser fun...

the only solace i get is probably from singing and hanging out with good, better and best frens =D. singing is a damn effective way to release emotions/stress, which i happen to have alot of recently. EA block fire escape staircase rocks =D. even though 'girl' says can hear me from 2nd storey, that doesn't stop me from practising. music and singing keep me sane; helps me to release anything pent up in me.
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everything's so surreal, like a dream. is it real? or just a figment of my own fertile imagination?
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i listened to the Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice last night. in the wee hours. when everyone was asleep. when i could only hear the gentle humming of the fan. even though the lyrics were so simple, so innocent, the emotions came through loud and clear.

sometimes, just a simple song can let loose what i've been trying to hide for the longest time. my weaknesses, past experiences, all coming back into memory...