angst; to release steam.

to do or not to do?to risk or not to risk?to try or not to try?

first ask yourself this: can you afford to lose? if you delve head on into the task ahead, can you afford to face the consequences of your actions?

if yes, by all means. it'll be a bonus if you win, but not too much of a loss if you do lose.
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bidding is omg sian.just to get that perfect class so that i can have wed off and mon slp till 12(=X), i'm like checking the bidding website every hour.zzz.pray i can get it.

but then again, even if i get it, i might not need to take it!which is even more sian.so screwed up.why can't they just tell me their decision now?
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i'm beginning to hate my driving instructor. downright arsehole. i ask him question, he happy answer, not happy don't answer. don't ask him question, he'll ask why i never ask him question. like i'm supposed to know i do wrongly right???if i know my mistakes i don't need an ass like you to teach me alrdy!

he'll say,'if you dunno, then you ask me.' then when i ask him, he'll say things like,'can you use your brain and think?'

walao.

seriously unprofessional.

even as a tuition teacher, you'll see the kid's answer and tell him why he/she's wrong. you can't possibly wait for the kid to TELL you he's wrong and ask you for the correct answer!coz if he knows he's wrong he won't need the teacher anyway wat.

and another major peeve: he'll say things like 'you try and do it your way(without actually telling me what's the mistake.) if you can succeed in parking, i'll give you $5000 and teach you free driving until you pass.'

ya ya i know you are the pro here and you know every single minute detail of how to park correctly. that doesn't give you a licence to be an arrogant son of a ***** you know.

as a teacher, you share your knowledge, not dump it to the student and expect him to grasp everything instantaneously. that's why i don't really like to tuition; because you must go down to the student's viewpoint and understand why he thinks that way before you can correct his mistake. which is often a long and painful process.

which is obviously something that HE doesn't seem to know how to do.

i've half a mind to flame him online. but i'm not dropping to his level. not yet at least. until he pisses me off further...

anyway since i'm going back to sch, less lessons with him. thank goodness =.=
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on a completely different note...a nice emo song. heard it on bai wan da ge xing and got addicted ever since.

囚鸟---张宇

词:十一郎 曲:张宇

我是被你囚禁的鸟
已经忘了天有多高
如果离开你给我的小小城堡
不知还有谁能依靠

我是被你囚禁的鸟
得到的爱越来越少
看着你的笑在别人眼中燃烧
我却要不到一个拥抱

我像是一个你可有可无的影子
冷冷地看着你说谎的样子
这撩乱的城市
容不下我的痴
是什么让你这样迷恋这样的放肆

我像是一个你可有可无的影子
和寂寞交换着悲伤的心事
对爱无计可施
这无味的日子

眼泪是唯一的奢侈...

张宇 and his wife make a perfect songwriter/composer duo. i like their musical style; got hooked on the emo-ness.

lol.

or maybe its just me =.=

The Pensieve

lots of things happened today, need to keep all these memories...

*points wand at my temple and extracts silvery-white substance, then deposits it into the Pensieve*

went to work early in the morning, planning to slack my way till 12 when i knock off and hand in my temp pass. then Boss asked me to stay till 1pm coz the permstaff had some tea session and there was lack of personnel manning the phone(so much so they have to get margaretha on the line.lol.) so i stayed. received a very weird and incomprehensible call from james @ MDA.

James: do you have an officer named samantha koh?

Me: Er...but she has resigned...

James: oh, but there used to be an officer by that name?

Me: Yea, but...

James: Okay thanks bye.

leaving me abit stunned and abit wth? and i kid you not sis, i'm serious; james DID call and ask if you used to work there. for reasons i can't fathom. LOL.

so when i left there wasn't any permstaff around. jitao just wrote a note and placed my IRAS possessions(which is like only calculator and temp pass) on mythi's desk.

and so i left.

after 8 months.

can't say it felt like ORD. i have much better vibes about level 21 than ladang camp. LOL. and actually, other than those irritating Talking-Pigeons(T/P) and the oh-so-holy Boss, the job's quite nice. at least, it is to me (:

took a long train and bus ride to NUS, during which i received a msg from mythi saying she forgot to pass me the farewell card! *sniffs* lol.okay la fake emo. which means i'll have to make a trip back to iras someday to collect it. and i'm gonna email the Boss and request for testimonial from her too. hehe.

after 20min of horlan-ness in NUS, i finally reached MPSH1. and luckily for me i saw jiawei who helped me to erhem 'advance' erhem 'in the' erhem 'queue'. completed matriculation and collected all my new cards. saw buddy and his family shopping for laptops. then headed to the cca fair and surprise surprise, i saw tashrif! senior from BMT, from 40th Advanced Saikang Learner Course (ASLC). haven't seen him for a long long time. and also got conned into putting my name down for NUSCO. oh well. just go there see see and maybe will join? LOL.

couldn't find NUS geyao though. they kinda disappeared from the face of the earth with no website/outdated blog. grr. never mind. will go and find out again.

then went Science Fac to hand it the form and transcripts. that place is a freaking maze man! walked in circles until i found the CORRECT block CORRECT level CORRECT dept.zzz.

and so a new start, new beginning approaching...6 more days...