headache. work to do. troubled mind. does it get worse?

onset of depression

phew. 4/5 of this super taxing week is over. 1 more 9hr day and i'm done for the week. yay. although there's nothing to look forward to during the weekend. weekend seems like the time to do all the lab reports, tutorials and assignments whose deadlines are fast approaching. not to mention the SS CA next wed.

how encouraging.

like its not enough trying to get work done during the weekdays, i have to sacrifice the weekend too. no choice.

haven't had much choice recently. haven't had much optimism recently too. everyday just seems to be such a burden, thinking of what's gonna happen the next day.

i wake up, staying awake thinking of all the stuffs i still have to do, and breathe a heavy sigh. i can't remember the last time i felt happy waking up, thinking its gonna be a GOOD day, without having to rush from one place to another, without having to worry about school, without having to think about work and more work.

haiz.

depression getting serious.

all i can hope is that next week is better. it better be better.

CNY, CNY come quickly... ... ...

smiles, all over my face...

you have no idea how much it means to me; i was smiling with ear to ear when you said that=). even though it's not confirmed, but...

makes me equally happy. and that's all that matters=)

and i'm sure cny week will be a good week=) intuition.

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the worst will be over by next week.