a draft that won't be revealed...

新不了情---万芳

心若倦了
泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝

这一份情
永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切
我不知道

回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了
情难了

today i wrote a draft on this blog...that will remain a draft...it contains all the things that i know...my feelings about it...and what the future holds...

it will remain locked until i see fit to reveal it...which might be never...or at least until the day i finally manage to put everything down...

the true test of friendship comes under pressure...if we can withstand this, we will probably be the best of friends till the End of it all...

the kid who smiled...

was feeling a little under the weather after work today n was contemplating whether to go tuition or not...then being the responsible tutor i am, i still went even though mood wasnt v gd n kinda tired...

fortunately she was very nice n interesting!the 1.5hrs passed by super fast n i taught oni like 1 topic of redox rxns...whenever she dunno how to do a question, she'll juz look at me n smile, which, according to sis, is the smart way of showing 'i dunno how to do pls show me'...LOL=P

kinda lifted my spirits...=)

nth interesting about work...had udders ice-cream for dessert during lunch!salty caramel tastes interesting...

forced to logoff at 3.30...subsequently so did sis...so we juz sat at our place n listened music n chatted till the rest were done to go off together...and i really meant it when i said i'm prolly the closest u have to a elder brother...and u are prolly the closest i have to a younger sister too=)

then sumone had to juz spoil my day by asking a random question...which led to my eventual not so good mood...lols...

but nvm...the day's over...tmr will be better...i think=P

random happenings...

No place that far---Westlife

I can't imagine any greater fear
Than waking up without you here
And though the sun would still shine on
My whole world would all be gone

But not for long

If I had to run
If I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers
Just to climb a thousand walls
Always know that I would find a way
To get to where you are
There's no place that far

happened to hear this song today...then i just spammed it=) westlife's earlier albums are just pure vintage...


woke up early to accompany sis n mf to ntu for sis's interview...which, fortunately for her, turned out quite fine=)

then went PS for fri the 13th...which is pure horror wif zero plot=X...and it left sis n mf wishing they didn't watch it in the 1st place...and they were the ones who proposed the movie =P...LOLS=)

then went back iras to surprise the rest who were slogging away on their avaya phones=P...left at 5 plus n went for the oh so holy tuition where i got my pay!!=D

PS: if u're toking about me, then u're welcome! i have lvl 50 counselling/making ppl cheery again skills on top of lvl 65 psychic skills yo=)...

big luck and small luck

i'm a firm believer of luck...no luck, and nothing gets going for you...luck like catching the train on time, getting the last packet of breakfast, getting the least troublesome calls, getting the best lunchtime...

but that's 'small' luck...luck that has to do with everyday life...luck that, even if you don't have, probably won't hurt you much...so wat if u get a troublesome call? so wat if ur lunchtime suck?its juz for one day, maximum one week...

big luck is about life changing decisions that go your way...big luck like getting sponsorship for university, like getting into medicine n being able to practise as a doctor, like being able to tell the one you cherish that you love him/her...

which one would you prefer?

a shitty everyday life but major decisions go your way, or a smooth everyday life, but a horrible piece of bad luck that arrives just in time to curb ur most desired desire?

i would rather have the earlier...

i've never had the privilege of having big luck...in fact the 3 scenarios above has happened to me before...

i keep telling myself, life has a way of working out for you...for every door that closes on you, a new door opens...that provides newer alternatives...n i always use this to counsel others too=X...for most part this theory is true...if i did get accepted by medicine, i wouldn't have completed army and wouldn't have learnt things that forced me to grow up...i wouldn't have joined a vocal school...i wouldn't have joined iras n met the amazing people there...and i most certainly wouldn't have been able to find the best friendship in this world that is ladden with betrayal n back-stabbing...

but alas...in the deepest, darkest moments of my life i find myself thinking of all the what-ifs...what if this had happened...wat if i had taken action sooner...wat if i hadn't hesitated...wat if...and the list goes on and on...

i find myself thinking of wat might be if i've had that tiniest piece of luck.

i find myself thinking of wat might be if i had followed my gut instinct.

i find myself thinking of wat might be if i hadn't met you.

if there is a God, tell me what is my next step...give me a hint, at the very least, of what i should do...please...

to the end of the world n back

最近---李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽
是不是有什麽事
让你不快乐

听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

1)let it go, and the answers to the problems will appear...

2)when one door closes, another opens...it might be a different path from the first, but be glad that you have a path in the first place...

3)remember how it started, remember the beautiful process, but let the end slowly fade from your memory...

4)can the will of God be defeated?i don't know...but don't try and u'll never know...

work n more=)

希望---沈祥龙

我一直以来都守护在你身边
不知你如何看得见
也只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能让我开心一整夜
好想拥有你在我身边
让尉暗世界变成晴天

时间已经蹉跎
我还有话很想说
月亮埋藏心中
却要如何开口

该不该继续承诺
该不该勇敢直说
我的宝贝
希望你会懂

不能在一起也没关系
至少你懂我的心
会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记
我爱你
你是我微笑的原因...

very nice song!noobish lyrics at 1st glance...but upon reading it it's very meaningful...


work wasn't boring today...for once huh?=P intellectually stimulating sias...first, one OO revoke/divorce/wife got HDB outside/dun wanna send in decree nisi case(iras personnel reading this will understand how tua this is=P)



then a couple of elderly, chinese-speaking old ladies that have no idea why they r calling in...



then a shitload of giro termination n reinstatements...for goodness knows why...



in between all these calls, there was time for some trash talking, music-listening n suaning between theng, wanling, sister n me...which made the day far more enjoyable=)



consequences of sleeping 17 hrs in 3 days is the overwhelming urge to sleep after lunch...zzz...lucky i wasnt caught=D hehe...



and to sis: good luck for ur interview n written test tomorrow! u have the good luck charm remember?=) you definitely can do it! just be yourself and answer the questions rationally=) just do ur very best n everything will be fine okay? i'll be giving you moral support from outside!=D

photo post!

photo post as promised!

but too lazy to rotate some of the photos clockwise...so=P hehe=)