枫

it takes 10 yrs to find true friendship, but just 10 minutes to destroy it...

sometimes, hurtful words/comments are said on the heat of the moment, and the other party probably didn't mean it that way either. but these 10 minutes, those few words, might just break a friendship that took 10 years to cultivate and maintain...

never say 'i don't wanna be frens with you anymore'. it could be more hurtful and sensitive than you think. friendship isn't something that can be placed on the bargaining table, neither can it be terminated upon command. it goes much deeper than that. and it is especially true for long time frens. is it worth it to quarrel over something minor, and not talk to each other for days, before realising that it is all a silly mistake and regret all the harsh words spoken?

the difference between true frens and mere acquaintances is that the former cares for you, while the latter cares for himself/herself. unfortunately, it's simply the reality of life. no mere acquaintance is going to console you when you are down, help you get up when you've fallen, or share your joy when you have succeeded.

and that's what a true fren does.

friendship doesn't come easy, and certainly doesn't come cheap. It comes with a lifetime of ranting, consoling, and offerings of helping hands. but you and i both know darn well that it is worth all that. And more=)

and once again, a nice song=) actually its my all time favourite jay chou song...i dunno why...just that this song draws me=D...

枫---周杰伦

曲:周杰伦 词:方文山

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间　
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面 　
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔　
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零　
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地　
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间　
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边...

the rehab has begun=)

no sadness.

no unhappiness.

no anger.

just relief.

and comfort.

and acceptance.

and so the rehab has begun=)

to soar above the highest clouds...
to climb beyond the highest mountains...
to reach out for the seemingly impossible...
do not fret, do not wonder, do not doubt...
because you are indeed meant for it...
and you know it...=)

recently listening to alot of oldies...heard one good one on xing guang da dao last week...by zhang yu=)...

曲终人散---张宇

你让他用戒指把你套上的时候
我察觉到你脸上复杂的笑容
那原本该是我
付予你的承诺
现在我只能隐身热闹中

我跟着所有人向你祝贺的时候
只有你知道我多喝了几杯酒
我不能再看你
多一眼都是痛
即使知道暗地里你又回头

我终于知道曲终人散的寂寞
只有伤心人才有
你最后一身红残留在我眼中
我没有再依恋的借口

原来这就是曲终人散的寂寞
我还想等你什么
你紧紧拉住我衣袖
又放开让我走

这一次跟我彻底分手...

for almost all of 张宇's songs, he writes the song tune while his wife writes all the lyrics...sweet isnt it?

but the lyrics still so depressing...=P

my half day off =X

i knew something would happen when there were only 2 calls in 1.5hrs...and indeed...by 11am got news from the Holy Broccoli that the 3 Musketeers forced to zao by 1.30pm...

freaking 1.30pm sias...tts like 5.5hrs la!seriously working very little and getting very little pay...hopefully can request for transfer to enfd as temp staff or something wif alex's recommendation...in one way, can earn more money by working more hours. summore can help the rest of them still at PTD such that they dunnid to take SOO much leave a week...AND, very importantly, need to rewake my brain up...

feel braindead recently...like kinda lost its ability to creative-think and everything i do feel repetitive...regardless of whether its calls, postcalls or tuition...zzz...need a booster, or at least something new to excite my brain...

after leaving at 1.30, went wif the 2 musketeers to eat then dhoby where we window shopped for 2 hours...got extremely fascinated by the chocolate jigsaw we saw at action city...spent like 45 min there trying to fit all the pieces into the box...to no avail...LOL...can't believe we got defeated by that thing...zzz...

went back novena where we met up wif sis n the rest of the gang, and headed to pizza hut...and viola! the surprise was planted!

it's really very rare to find colleagues that are as bonded as the peeps at PTD are...its like a breath of fresh air from the usual politicking and backstabbing that you hear about office work...and i'm glad i have such colleagues=)

and as usual, a nice song...

想你的习惯---小宇

就这样简单你走过来
而我终於明白了
自己为何要存在

慢慢的我已经离不开
因为我已爱上你了
没有任何原因的
如果我说爱你
能不能永远相信

这一天我想跟着你
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以後都能在一起

每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手
我和你
甜蜜的走

世界宽得有一些无奈
你和我只有一个
该怎么不怕孤单
说好了我们都要勇敢
就算不小心迷路了
也能够听见你的

如果我说爱你
能不能永远相信

找到你的幸运多完美(多完美)
所有感觉多特别(多特别)
想带你走到世界边缘(喔)
未来 不变

这一天我想跟着你
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以後都能在一起

每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手
我和你 甜蜜的走

我和你 甜蜜的走!

tis the season for meetings between random frens=)

a lot of random things happened at a totally random time today...

1) was woken up by a message from a fren's fren(whom i din know) requesting to borrow shoes from me for another performance organised by gefang...

2) received a random msg from my former CCA teacher in charge to join in an alumni table for some VJ alumni gathering...

3) saw a random army fren in (surprise surprise!) the lift at the 15th floor of iras building! he was a spec in taurus coy, and i did guard duty wif him at rocky hill before...smoker and hardcore clubber, but quite a nice guy nonetheless...totally dunno what he was doing in iras wearing bermudas and looking totally relaxed mood...din have a chance to ask aloysius too, before he got off at the 1st floor=P

4) then at novena mrt, met one of my men from 03/08 PTP standard batch! summore my own section...he was section best if i didnt remember wrongly, had gold for ippt, marksman for shooting AND ENDED UP GOING MANDAI CAMP AS DRIVER! like wats the point of training them so hard and training WITH them at times if they are gonna end up at some random vocation like medic/driver...waste time=X

5) saw another secondary school fren that i havent seen in ages on the train home from TPY tuition(which left me braindead alrdy actually=P).

haha...actually these improved my mood after the nasty day with nasty calls asking for nastily difficult solutions...zzz...which reminds me...LOTS to do tmr at work...=(

anyway, on a totally different note...a nice song=)...Apparently A'mei sang this song at the lowest point of her singing career. Probably one of the few rare songs better captured on CD then her live singing...since she isnt too depressed now, can't reli bring out the flavour in the song...dedicated to the abjectly sad and horribly depressed, or those who are just fed up with their jobs=P...

张惠妹---我要快乐?

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着
味道却淡了

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐!
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐!
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的...

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐!
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐!
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的

我的决定是对的...

PS: just feel that this song is nice okay?!! not emo-ing LOL!=)

apocalypse part II

i wrote an entry on 'what would happen if there was to be an apocalypse' previously.

i asked a question: what would you do if you knew that everything that has existed will be wiped out in 24hrs?

i had no answer then. but i do now=)

1) i will beg for forgiveness from my family for all the wilfulness and stubbornness they had to endure from me.
2) i will phone my close frens(provided phone lines are still working!) and tell them it has been nice meeting them and hope they have enjoyed our time together.
3) i will be glad that i have lived my life to the fullest during my limited time on this Earth.
4) i will be glad that i have tried my very best in everything i have done.
5) i will be glad that any hard feelings, any bad blood, has already been thrashed out, and bring no sadness or unhappiness into the Other World, if there is any such world.
6) i will encourage everyone to smile, for it is better to go happily than go sadly.
7) and i will be glad to move on =) , especially if it is a foregone conclusion.

and i've mentioned before, and i'll say again, i really hope this Armageddon happens before we graduate from uni...seriously don't see the point of slogging so hard for 4 years if Doomsday is coming along =X

random blabbering =X

1)Actually, problems are problems only if you perceive it as one...if you can look at it with a fairer point of view, or a more optimistic point of view, would you feel more liberated? True, it will not solve by itself. but sometimes time is a solution. time is a solution to a lot of things don't you agree?=)

2)Friendship, to me, is sacred. And i cherish every single one. Especially yours, yours and yours. It has NEVER, never ever, crossed my mind to forsake these friendships for anything. And it will remain this way. Whatever happens, whatever the future may hold...specula apprecor!

I just want everything to go back to normal.
I just want the endless chatter, joking, laughing, working, going outs to continue.
I just want everyone involved to be happy again. =X

dissolvo emolior?

i hope not...

PS: the orange words are in latin anyway!=D...interesting language=)!

closure to the Journey...

The Journey---911

Time waits for no one　
Sure as the tide pulls the ocean　
Sure as the path that's been chosen cannot be changed　
In my life's destination　
I searched for the explanation　
For some kind of reason　
For my sorrow and pain　
But in my isolation　
I learned to listen　
To be thankful for the love that I'd been given　

This is my journey　
Journey through life　
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried　
As the road unwinds　

This is my journey　
And I've learned to fight　
To make me strong enough　
To lift me up　
To bring my dreams alive　

In my desperation　
I swore that never again　
Would I hear all the laughter of my friends and my family　
A million tears that I'd cried　
Then began to dry　
In the silence of the night time　I
had came to realize　
A sweet inspiration filled my horizon　
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in　

This is my journey　
Journey through life　
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried　
As the road unwinds　
This is my journey　
And I've learned to fight　
To make me strong enough　
To lift me up　
To bring my dreams alive　

I'm going to love each moment of every day and night　
I'll look back to the past with the sweetest smile　
For now I realise　
I've been given the key to life　
I've been kissed by the angel by my side　
Oh..Yeah...　

This is my journey　
Journey through life　
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried　
As the road unwinds　
This is my journey　
And I've learned to fight　
To make me strong enough　
To lift me up　
To bring my dreams alive　
To bring my dreams alive　
To bring my dreams alive......


i will keep wat i promised...and i hope u will keep urs too...

even though this isnt the answer i wanted to hear, but at least it's an answer...God has given me a sign, and i'm grateful for that...

i finally see an end to the turbulent 19 days...where maybe, just maybe, i gain my closure...