ENIGMA

Mr Quek will be Mr Quek. the soul of any orchestra he conducts. the way he conducts and controls the orchestra, and the dramatic effects he adds into every song...really an enigma! the brains behind VJCO=)

Vhapsody 09 was great. had its fair share of minor hiccups, but still the songs were presented quite well. Especially 蒲公英的约定! didn't expect guo lao shi to conduct that song himself, and it was quite well done!=) and i need the video taken by chiheem! hehe=)

Fei Tian and Feng Nian Ji were not bad too, though i think, from the way guo lao shi conducted, that he was looking for a bit more...dynamics and energy from the orchestra as a whole. And Xiangle was pro too!if he can conduct this well at this age, he can only get better in future...another quek ling kiong in the making=D

and the juniors were all very high after the concert! brings back all the memories from yester-year when WE were performing for Vhapsody ourselves=)

VERY random thoughts

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.

Buddha (=.=)

driving was zzz today. got owned by him for gripping on the steering too hard =X. and for forgetting to release the clutch slowly. lol. like wth.

but nvm. going back vj later for CO concert. haven't been to watch one in eons, considering i performed in last year's concert. haha. still remember last year i chionged back to vj after a 5 day field camp and after firing thousands of GPMG rounds for BIC (plus the 3hr cleaning weapon process). almost didn't make it for the final rehearsal. ahh...the memories=)

but Buddha says don't dwell in the past and enjoy the present. so i am! or at least trying extremely hard to.

and H1N1 has invaded sg. well, it has always been a matter of time. no running away from it. i have always been under the opinion that when the Powers Upstairs decide that it's time for me to leave this world, i will have to, like it or not. whatever the way, be it swine flu, apocalypse, accident, or even peacefully 70 years from now. so why fear death? i only hope it isn't going to be painful =X

for the moment, life goes on. swine flu or not.

感情线---Tension

曲:Brian(Tension) 词:娃娃

手心 那条感情线
和世界上什么人相连
虽然谈着恋爱
虽然也会失恋
怎么花了时间没一个有缘

走在 混乱的街头
找不到爱情真正入口
有时下错了车
有时上错了楼
直到那一刻直到她出现

She's the one 那是种神秘直觉
She's the one 她是我的等待
那一天 擦肩而过
当眼神交会
再也舍不得离开

She's the one 有一种触电感觉
She's the one 她就是今生的爱
感情线 两手相连 连成一线
微笑的弧线

手心 那条感情线
和世界上什么人相连
虽然谈着恋爱 虽然也会失恋
怎么花了时间 没一个有缘

走在 混乱的街头
找不到爱情真正入口
有时下错了车 有时上错了楼
直到那一刻 直到她出现

She's the one 那是种神秘直觉
She's the one 她是我的等待
那一天 擦肩而过
当眼神交会 再也舍不得离开

She's the one 有一种触电感觉
She's the one 她就是今生的爱
感情线 两手相连连成一线
幸福的笑脸 Oh...

我在心里放着烟火
不必再唱寂寞的歌
She's the one 我终于找到了
有真爱属于我 就是她

She's the one 那是种神秘直觉
She's the one 她是我的等待
那一天 擦肩而过
当眼神交会 再也舍不得离开

She's the one 有一种触电感觉
She's the one 她就是今生的爱
感情线 两手相连 连成一线
I know she's the one...

hoho...don't you know she's the one?=)
a song by 陶喆's proteges, tension. they are an acapella group to start with, and their harmony is quite flawless. unfortunately they had to disband so no more of their albums/songs in future=/ but their shifu is still around and rumours has it he will release an album next month?=D looking forward to that...

anger management

He who angers you conquers you.

Elizabeth Kenny

makes you wonder why we get angry in the 1st place huh?=)

quite a peaceful 2 days. i realise it's quite possible to have a peace of mind when you aren't really bothered about things anymore. like when you put down certain things, more things enter your mind that you wouldn't have noticed previously. things that actually bring a smile to my face. and more importantly, my heart too=)

the world is a better place when you aren't blinded by what disturbs you, stresses you and pisses you off. it is hard, but you will find the end-product very satisfying.

And i realise i am the best counsellor for myself. i find myself analysing things with more clarity than if i find someone to solve problems for me. maybe that's what people call 'loner', but hey it works for me! some problems, getting past yourself, the barrier that you set for YOURSELF, and it will cease to be a problem. more often than not, it's just a matter of perspective, at how you see it.

anyway, i predict the nba finals will be between lakers and magic. and lakers will clinch it=)

原谅我---萧敬腾

词/曲：阿沁(F.I.R)

请不要分了以後　

还记得 亲吻过 的承诺

你的永久 已不属於我

默默低头　

那时我很多　话哽在喉咙

你的笑 你的快乐　

或许我爱太多 想太多

我能感受　他比我适合

爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　

比你先说分手

请原谅我

原谅我不成熟

不爱你是藉口　

好让你离开我

请原谅我　

好想自私将你占有

你的寂寞就给我承受

换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後　

还记得 亲吻过 的承诺

你的永久　已不属於我

默默低头　

那时我很多　话哽在喉咙

你的笑 你的快乐　

或许我 爱太多 想太多

我能感受　他比我适合

爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　

比你先说分手

请原谅我　

原谅我不成熟

不爱你是藉口　

好让你离开我

请原谅我　

好想自私将你占有

你的寂寞就给我承受

换你过更好的生活

爱过 恨过 哭过 也笑过

亲吻过你的脆弱

其实我比谁都要懦弱!

原谅我　

必须假装爱错

别让时间逗留

我怕说不出口

原谅我　

没有解释太多心痛

别无所求　彻底忘了我

爱原来有舍得

我爱过　我才懂...

such sad lyrics, but i dun feel sad listening to it =P...maybe it's coz of the immunity?

like what the HELL

Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.

Plato

okay now i'm really pissed.

it isn't my god-damned fault that you had a bad day at work. did it occur to you that mine might not have been all bright and cheery as well?

this isn't an excuse to start yelling at people and cooping yourself in the room. (and everyone wonders why i'm so thin. maybe its coz of the LACK of cooking? seriously i was fatter in army)

whatever la, whatever makes you happy.

you should be glad that i'm pissed, coz if i'm not, it means i'm freaking past caring.

and it could come soon.

wow. just wow. immunity to it all.

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.

Oprah Winfrey

seems like i'm immune to it all already. that was fast. just... nothing, zero, zilch... sometimes i wonder if i'm kinda cold-blooded. or maybe my memory selectively chooses to remember things i want and forget things i don't. sounds like a great skill i acquired =P

crazy day at work today =X. hit a month long career high in call count i think. and all the chinese-speaking tp are seriously getting on my nerves. grr... and i realise my threshold for stupidity is getting lower and lower. they say anything stupid/ask stupid questions, i will just shoot back a subtle sarcastic remark which is sometimes not very subtle. which means it's pretty obvious that i'm suan-ing them.

but i don't really care.

and i really need to go singing/kboxing...LOL. any kakis?=D

如果我变成回忆---Tank

词/曲: Tank

累了
照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的
就停止了.

听着
呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏
都难掌握

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体
拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你
人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你
槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天
你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐
什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得!

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体
拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你
人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心!

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你
槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天
你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你!

如果我变成回忆
最怕我太不通气
顽固的赖在空气
霸占你心里
每一寸空隙

要让依然爱我的你
痛苦承受失去
这样不公平
请你尽力

把我忘记 ... ... ... ...

i really love these lyrics.
really really do.
the most touching i've heard since love, me by collin raye.

epitomises love at its highest level.
if anyone can do this...
he certainly doesn't deserve to die.

written by tank. abit of his personal experience into this as well as he has a hole in his heart. so the 1st verse is actually his own story.

he speaks of being afraid to die, not because of himself, but because his love will be lonely...
he speaks of being afraid that his love will have to do without his comfort for the rest of her life, and hates himself for leaving her so soon...
he speaks of being hopeful that time will make her forget him, and that she may find someone else who is able to share her worries and burden...
he doesn't care when his last moment of life is, just that he wants to spend every waking moment with her, because she is the one thing that he can't bear to leave behind...

extra bounce in my step...

went out with the scorpion specs today=). it didn't seem too long ago that i was seeing minchao, soh, lau and nic chia in camp. and now we are all out of the place that we spent 1.5yrs in (well at least for most of us, soh and lau still got 20+ days to go=P)

thanks guys, for letting me know that friendships, once forged, can never be broken. despite all the rubbish that we went through, we toiled and suffered and survived through everything together.

And this is something that can't be taken away. Ever =)

Regards
3SG (NS) Jansen Tham
BMTC2/S coy
Platoon 1 Section 2 Section Commander
10/10/2007-10/11/2008

pictures and songs that soothe my soul...

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Lao Tzu


wasn't aware lao tzu understood love LOL...i suppose philosophy encompasses everything?=)



不是真的爱我---孙燕姿

作词:胡如虹 吴依铮 作曲:刘志文

你和我就算了吗
别用沉默代替回答
陌生得让我害怕
心像被针扎了一下


总是不提那句话
我想你是故意装傻
不是不懂得表达
还在等什么说清楚吧


我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重


我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由


终于明白那句话
爱能让人一夜长大
不成熟的感情啊
让我变得小心害怕


我和你就算了吧
不想再为爱而挣扎
爱情若没有火花
至少了解后懂得放下


我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重

我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由...


in yanzi's 2nd album. and i have never heard of it until 2 weeks ago!=X
although the lyrics are sad, for some weird reason it soothes my soul and calms me down.




if failure is the norm, don't get used to it. or you will forget how to savour victory.