and yet another day that i slept late and woke up early. my ever-increasing sleep debt is accumulating...
went for tuition for the first time in a long time, coz of midterms and performance. and literally slacked throughout while watching her do the mcq practise papers.=X oops.
then went bras brasah to get the latest dan brown book, the lost symbol. but there was only the hardcover edition which is omfg expensive, so i decided to wait until they released the paperback version before buying. i still got the newest jeff archer book though=D. shall read it when i have the time. or rather, i'll still read it regardless of whether i have time or not.=X lol!
finished all my webcast lectures (except for gem) and tuts due next week. need to start on my last gem assignment and start doing all my summary notes. busy busy. and i have rehearsals next week for miniconcert as well. AND the holy 20% lab report for organic chem.
sigh. week 9 is a bad week=X
but at least we don't have killer weekly lab reports to do anymore. after that ass S.H. relinquished his lecturer position, dr. saif khan's lab report is like soooooo much easier to do! no more having headaches thinking over how to do the stupid report anymore!=D
to say honestly, i'm living on adrenaline now. so tired. i wake up knowing i'll be even more tired, but does that mean i don't wake up?
i try my best, but is my best enough?
it's so close, but it feels so far...
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
an unforgettable evening
today was an unforgettable day. in more ways than one.
woke up feeling anxious because i hadn't completed my lab06 which was due at 6pm. luckily had the help of yuern and shaun, who generously donated some codes to me so that i could complete my report. haha. thanks guys!
crashed girl's tut class which had like less than 10 people(lol everyone's like ponning lessons during e-learning week) coz i didn't want to wake up early for math tut on fri. then went outside lt7a to complete my report before heading to voices clubroom at 6.
the performance wasn't that bad. at least i think my songs weren't too bad, considering i only ran through them twice? didn't really catch joel's song intro and started off-beat, but he managed to catch my tempo anyway and the song proceeded on quite smoothly.
although i think i didn't do as well as i could when i'm 100%, at least i caught some of the audience's attention. so that was my 1st experience singing in a restaurant, where most of the diners aren't listening to you and you have to catch their attention with your vocals.
quite an interesting experience. and thanks to everyone who came down to watch the performance=)
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sometimes, i let my heart do the thinking, instead of my brain. it's too tiring, too exhausting, to keep trying to think rationally and wisely, trying to think what is the right thing to do.
but look deep inside your heart.
is this what you really want?
i can say for sure, yes. that's what i really want.
woke up feeling anxious because i hadn't completed my lab06 which was due at 6pm. luckily had the help of yuern and shaun, who generously donated some codes to me so that i could complete my report. haha. thanks guys!
crashed girl's tut class which had like less than 10 people(lol everyone's like ponning lessons during e-learning week) coz i didn't want to wake up early for math tut on fri. then went outside lt7a to complete my report before heading to voices clubroom at 6.
the performance wasn't that bad. at least i think my songs weren't too bad, considering i only ran through them twice? didn't really catch joel's song intro and started off-beat, but he managed to catch my tempo anyway and the song proceeded on quite smoothly.
although i think i didn't do as well as i could when i'm 100%, at least i caught some of the audience's attention. so that was my 1st experience singing in a restaurant, where most of the diners aren't listening to you and you have to catch their attention with your vocals.
quite an interesting experience. and thanks to everyone who came down to watch the performance=)
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sometimes, i let my heart do the thinking, instead of my brain. it's too tiring, too exhausting, to keep trying to think rationally and wisely, trying to think what is the right thing to do.
but look deep inside your heart.
is this what you really want?
i can say for sure, yes. that's what i really want.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
i love singing in a place where creativity isn't restricted. =D and i get my way! hoho (: a place where i can express my ideas about the song, and the ideal way i wanna present it.
Singalongsong---方大同
I wrote this song
It's not too long
Cause I'm thinking about you
I wrote this song
Maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you
I don't know what you think about me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love, you see...
Oh it's a sing a long song that's not too long
It's when I think about you
That I hear song
And you can sing along
Baby if you want to
Cause baby I wrote this, I wrote this for you...
I wrote this song
It's not too long
Cause I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song
This can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you
I just want to make you happy
Maybe you want nothing at all
How I wish that you are meant to be
Forever, end the day with me...
My singalongsong(:
Singalongsong---方大同
I wrote this song
It's not too long
Cause I'm thinking about you
I wrote this song
Maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you
I don't know what you think about me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love, you see...
Oh it's a sing a long song that's not too long
It's when I think about you
That I hear song
And you can sing along
Baby if you want to
Cause baby I wrote this, I wrote this for you...
I wrote this song
It's not too long
Cause I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song
This can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you
I just want to make you happy
Maybe you want nothing at all
How I wish that you are meant to be
Forever, end the day with me...
My singalongsong(:
not to take things for granted
i went to NUH to see Dad today. i didn't go to visit him last week because it was exam week and i had no time. another reason was, well, i was afraid it would affect my concentration for the exam.
that was when i realised my father is really old. i've not seen him so weak and frail for a long time. haiz. i seem to have taken everything around me for granted.
i remember when i was still in army, i was confined in camp for nearly 3 weeks. ie. not going home for 3 weeks, coz of confinement week and COS duties and stuffs. i remember i was so busy, i didn't call home for the whole 3 weeks.
3 weeks. if your son didn't call home for 3 weeks, what would you do?
hmm. i think i need to reshuffle my priorities. i think i've been too self-centred. everything i've been doing and thinking, it has been for myself. i've not been thinking what i can do for others, for my family.
i can't make any promises, or do anything very significant now. but i tell myself, not to take anything for granted from now on.
nobody can predict what is going to happen tomorrow. Murphy's law, sadly, does exist. but what i can do now, is to spend more time with my family, my loved one.
for you are my priority=)
PS: whoever is reading this, please do not write on the tagboard for this particular blog entry. anything u might want to say, u can tell me in person, or thru msn. i want to keep this entry simple. =) thanks!
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靠近---庾澄庆
世界如此忙
忙得你和我都失去了判断
赢了所有失去最初的梦
最爱的人
最好时光
一切不能重来
靠近你就在今晚
感受彼此心中温暖
能不能 靠近我就在今晚
不要再让彼此遗憾
在今晚...
every day i learn more about myself
every day... i try to be a better man than i was yesterday.
that was when i realised my father is really old. i've not seen him so weak and frail for a long time. haiz. i seem to have taken everything around me for granted.
i remember when i was still in army, i was confined in camp for nearly 3 weeks. ie. not going home for 3 weeks, coz of confinement week and COS duties and stuffs. i remember i was so busy, i didn't call home for the whole 3 weeks.
3 weeks. if your son didn't call home for 3 weeks, what would you do?
hmm. i think i need to reshuffle my priorities. i think i've been too self-centred. everything i've been doing and thinking, it has been for myself. i've not been thinking what i can do for others, for my family.
i can't make any promises, or do anything very significant now. but i tell myself, not to take anything for granted from now on.
nobody can predict what is going to happen tomorrow. Murphy's law, sadly, does exist. but what i can do now, is to spend more time with my family, my loved one.
for you are my priority=)
PS: whoever is reading this, please do not write on the tagboard for this particular blog entry. anything u might want to say, u can tell me in person, or thru msn. i want to keep this entry simple. =) thanks!
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靠近---庾澄庆
世界如此忙
忙得你和我都失去了判断
赢了所有失去最初的梦
最爱的人
最好时光
一切不能重来
靠近你就在今晚
感受彼此心中温暖
能不能 靠近我就在今晚
不要再让彼此遗憾
在今晚...
every day i learn more about myself
every day... i try to be a better man than i was yesterday.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
我可以. 写.一首简单的歌...
2nd post in a day! shows how bored i am. lol.
was supposed to go for tuition, but felt v tired and had a headache. so just postponed it again. haiz. feel abit bad. but...they are already 'A' students employing me to ensure they CONFIRM get 'A'. so i dun suppose it affects them much. oops. okok i know. excuses.=P
did mle and cm tut today. tried to start on lab 6 b4 realising i dunno how to start. need to finetune my gem assignment. need to go through all the webcasted lectures for elearning week. which will be very freaking tedious.
i just watched the org chem lecture and the lecturer was talking at top speed la. crazy. he finished one chapter in 38 mins.=.= this elearning week isnt a very good idea as far as i'm concerned. maybe the rest is good. but the idea is not.
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a nice song that a friend will be singing this thurs. i should have chosen this song! haha.very meaningful lyrics=)
我可以---蔡旻佑
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景
有我爱你...
我可以
陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你...
unfortunately this singer is a one-album wonder. his second album, was, well, plain disastrous.LOL. but this song is nice=D
was supposed to go for tuition, but felt v tired and had a headache. so just postponed it again. haiz. feel abit bad. but...they are already 'A' students employing me to ensure they CONFIRM get 'A'. so i dun suppose it affects them much. oops. okok i know. excuses.=P
did mle and cm tut today. tried to start on lab 6 b4 realising i dunno how to start. need to finetune my gem assignment. need to go through all the webcasted lectures for elearning week. which will be very freaking tedious.
i just watched the org chem lecture and the lecturer was talking at top speed la. crazy. he finished one chapter in 38 mins.=.= this elearning week isnt a very good idea as far as i'm concerned. maybe the rest is good. but the idea is not.
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a nice song that a friend will be singing this thurs. i should have chosen this song! haha.very meaningful lyrics=)
我可以---蔡旻佑
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景
有我爱你...
我可以
陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你...
unfortunately this singer is a one-album wonder. his second album, was, well, plain disastrous.LOL. but this song is nice=D
when it becomes apparent to everyone.
yesterday was a roller coaster ride of emotions. nervous to start the day(because of the last midterm), depressed after the midterm (because of the careless mistakes) and adrenaline on the car ride (lol at 100kmh=P).
went for reason's birthday party at downtown yest. the starting conditions weren't great, raining and all, but hey, whatever murphy throws at us, we can throw back=D. lol.
didn't know alot of people save for requiem, reason and zhiwei, but we are young people, and young people make friends very fast=D. hoho. played texas poker and bridge and taiti and the climax was asshole taiti. HAHA. super funny. some things you learn the hard way eh? like putting the '2' card as the last card auto condemns you a single round of assholeness. LOL.
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sometimes i feel as though i've overdone certain things. have i? lots of people have asked me questions regarding it, and i've always not given a straight answer. actually it's a yes. (yes u r right yes u r right yes u r rite).^(no. of frens who asked me the same question out of concern/curiosity)--- matlab syntax.grr.
i was kinda shocked when a random fren asked me the question. i was surprised that he actually noticed. i didn't know i had been that obvious. lol. or maybe its because his sixth sense is imba-ly strong. but its weird and cruel irony that it becomes apparent to everyone else but the people involved. maybe what they say is true: when u're in it, u can't see it. only when you're a bystander, can u truly see the whole picture.
i think i have a strong sixth sense, and i read body language very accurately. i can see, beyond the facial expressions and actions, what most people are thinking. it's an inborn ability; i didn't train myself lol.(like how to train??) so i can sense how most people are feeling most of the time. and 90% of the time, i'm right. let's just say past experiences have proved it.
and it isn't a good thing. really.
it's like being able to see the future. would you wanna know wat's gonna happen to you 10, 20, 30 years down the road?
it's times like that when i feel so so alone. so...torn. so paradoxical.
i feel like i need to do something, but yet i'm hesitant. when i'm braver, maybe everything will clear. it may take seconds, hours, days, weeks...all i hope is that courage comes earlier. because luck favours the brave.
went for reason's birthday party at downtown yest. the starting conditions weren't great, raining and all, but hey, whatever murphy throws at us, we can throw back=D. lol.
didn't know alot of people save for requiem, reason and zhiwei, but we are young people, and young people make friends very fast=D. hoho. played texas poker and bridge and taiti and the climax was asshole taiti. HAHA. super funny. some things you learn the hard way eh? like putting the '2' card as the last card auto condemns you a single round of assholeness. LOL.
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sometimes i feel as though i've overdone certain things. have i? lots of people have asked me questions regarding it, and i've always not given a straight answer. actually it's a yes. (yes u r right yes u r right yes u r rite).^(no. of frens who asked me the same question out of concern/curiosity)--- matlab syntax.grr.
i was kinda shocked when a random fren asked me the question. i was surprised that he actually noticed. i didn't know i had been that obvious. lol. or maybe its because his sixth sense is imba-ly strong. but its weird and cruel irony that it becomes apparent to everyone else but the people involved. maybe what they say is true: when u're in it, u can't see it. only when you're a bystander, can u truly see the whole picture.
i think i have a strong sixth sense, and i read body language very accurately. i can see, beyond the facial expressions and actions, what most people are thinking. it's an inborn ability; i didn't train myself lol.(like how to train??) so i can sense how most people are feeling most of the time. and 90% of the time, i'm right. let's just say past experiences have proved it.
and it isn't a good thing. really.
it's like being able to see the future. would you wanna know wat's gonna happen to you 10, 20, 30 years down the road?
it's times like that when i feel so so alone. so...torn. so paradoxical.
i feel like i need to do something, but yet i'm hesitant. when i'm braver, maybe everything will clear. it may take seconds, hours, days, weeks...all i hope is that courage comes earlier. because luck favours the brave.
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