midterm analysis (to be reviewed when final term exams come along)

mcqs suck.

big time.

the profs just love to distract and confuse students with this holy imba option called 'none of the above'. and i got tricked. damn.

=.=

got 7 of 10 for maths...which means 14 out of 20 since maths midterms is 20%. 6 points there.

i shudder to think about matlab. a whole lot of variables that can affect the grade. this one, i ahve really no clue.

org chem...too many questions to discuss, so i'm not too sure of how many i'm gonna get correct as well.

material science. sux. the highest i can have is 29/35 since i made 2 careless mistakes. and that is if i get all the rest of it correct. and judging from what i see, tons of people are probably gonna get full marks.=.=

fml.

how to get a cap of 4.0???

hindsight and foresight

recently a friend told me that it's better to lose knowing that you have tried, rather than to lose without trying...i.e. even if you know u're gonna lose, just try anyway. if u don't know whether u're gonna lose, all the more you must try.

makes sense. actually subconsciously, i've always been applying this theory. all along i've never been one to give up. you get hit, you stand up, you live to die another day. until i realised recently that i've only been applying this to work, army and studies. other times, this aspect...is strangely missing.

when you have nothing to lose but all to gain, go for it.
when you have something to lose but more to gain, you SHOULD still got for it.
but when you have everything to lose, but everything to gain, will you still go for it?

it's a matter of whether you can stand to lose. i've heard bankers give talks and say,'You must always think how much you can lose before you invest. If you can afford to lose, then you can afford to invest.' i subscribe to that theory. only if you can afford that setback, can you afford to start.

can i afford to lose? i don't think so. =X

or rather, i should change the question to, will i lose? hmm...that's a good question,that i currently do not have an answer.

will the answer come soon? hopefully=P...

%% just some additional comments

it's 2am and i'm not asleep. i have a lecture at 8am tomorrow. i have to wake at 6am. fml.

am listening to a song by eason chan. as you may (or may not) know, eason chan is an extremely brillant singer who sings with a ton of innate emotions. his songs are capable of digging out your innermost emotions and iterate them 'n' times, like a 'while' loop. especially so when you're feeling rather down, and listening to his songs in the middle of the night. just makes me feel so...emo (for the lack of a better word). simply listening to his story through his songs makes me feel better(:

K歌之王---陈奕迅

我以为要是唱的用心良苦
你总会对我多点在乎

我以为虽然爱情已成往事
千言万语 说出来可以互相安抚

期待你感动真实的我们难相处
写词的让我 唱出你要的幸福
谁曾经感动分手的关头才懂得
离开排行榜 更铭心刻骨

我已经相信有些人 我永远不必等
所以我明白 在灯火栏珊处为什么会哭
你不会相信 嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白 我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐

那是醉生梦死才能熬成的苦
爱如潮水 我忘了我是谁
至少还有你哭...

我想唱一首歌 给我们祝福
唱完了我会一个人住
我愿意试着了解从此以后
拥挤的房间一个人的心 有多孤独

让我 断了气 铁了心 爱的过火
一回头就找到出路
让我成为了无情的k歌之王
麦克风都让我征服
想不到你 若无其事的说
这样滥情何苦?

我想来一个吻别 作为结束
想不到你只说我不许哭
不让我领悟...

the first taste

the first taste of exams in 3 years. was rather bad =.= well, knew matlab was a killer all the while and since everyone is screwed, it sort of evens out. maths was, well, disappointing. made 2 careless mistakes which irritates me more than not knowing how to do.

oh wells, another one on thurs and one more on sat before i can finally take a breather.

another reprieve is voices. i just feel like going even though its in the midst of midterms. singing helps me to destress, as well as helps me release some pent up emotions. in ways more than studies.

sometimes i do wonder.
sometimes i do overthink. about all the what ifs.
sometimes, i do ponder if i want to hear that elusive answer.

it takes two to clap, but only one to dream...

when a good song makes a gloomy day bright again...

一首简单的歌---王力宏

我一直
在思考
让你了解我的好
却忘了常常对你微笑

失去的
忘记的
我会尽力去弥补
你是我最珍贵的财富

写一首简单的歌
让你的心情快乐
爱情就像一条河
难免会碰到波折

这一首简单的歌
并没有什么独特
好像我
那么的平凡却又深刻...

put my music player on shuffle mode and came across this song...forgot how nice it was(: sweet sweet lyrics...and suits my range too!haha. shall sing it when i have a chance=P leehom's songs are always very nice=D

countdown: 1 day to go back school. for midterms. arghh. there we go again. didn't have time to really rest during this 'supposed' holiday. yeah right man holiday. holidays shouldn't be spent chionging mugging. i think i'm more tired out during this hols than during normal school term. not to forget, still got gem assignments (two of them! want to kill us ar??) and weekly lab reports to submit.

that's a bright thought.=.=

but never mind. i'm sure i'll ride through this.

i know, therefore i can and i must...regis advenio nunc!