went to sum seafood restaurant for dinner to pre-celebrate dad's bday...
then suddenly felt depressed when i reached home...n tt has been happening a lot recently=X...not too sure wats happening to me...just seem unable to lift my spirits...
is it because i care too much?i realise i've been thinking about too many random stuff AND drawing too many conclusions that prove to be....inconclusive...
it's juz like a hyper-active scientist that analyses every single scrap of evidence he has to come up wif a million possibilities of wat is actually happening...of which 999 999 of them r wrong...the worst thing is i can't seem to stop my brain from auto-generating out such possibilities!grrr...n considering my brain isnt a computer i cant auto-shutdown...maybe the holiday is the catalyst to give me a wake-up call...n provide me wif sum answers...whether i like it or not...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
cuteness=)
okay now after reading my title most of u will prolly think i'm gonna gush on sum pretty girl on the streets...
fortunately no...(and i'm not that kind of person anyway!)
have u ever seen an elderly couple holding hands while strolling on the streets?like 70, 80 yr old old man n woman, with hardly any teeth remaining...but still looking lovely-dovey...and sweet like they were still dating...
i dunno bout u, but that scene brought warmth to my heart...
too often we focus on the materialistic aspects of life...focus on work n study n the small issues that bother us...that we forget the bonds that tie us to our loved ones...
yet its the small little actions of 'cuteness' like the old married couple that remind me what's most important to me=)
note:this isnt an emo post...juz reflections=D
fortunately no...(and i'm not that kind of person anyway!)
have u ever seen an elderly couple holding hands while strolling on the streets?like 70, 80 yr old old man n woman, with hardly any teeth remaining...but still looking lovely-dovey...and sweet like they were still dating...
i dunno bout u, but that scene brought warmth to my heart...
too often we focus on the materialistic aspects of life...focus on work n study n the small issues that bother us...that we forget the bonds that tie us to our loved ones...
yet its the small little actions of 'cuteness' like the old married couple that remind me what's most important to me=)
note:this isnt an emo post...juz reflections=D
genesis!
super belated photo post! taken during genesis recital wif the iras peeps...thanks for the surprise n thanks for coming!=D
n this is zhiyang's medley!cant see clearly...but can hear v clearly...pro-ed!=)
Friday, April 24, 2009
new tuition!
went for my newest tuition at jln ishak...which was insanely hard to find...asked like 3 ppl n one of them even had to whip out a street directory to help me find la!lols=P
but she is a nice tuition kid!n quite smart too...like a B student trying to get to A...juz not so used to teaching in a landed property with a study n aircon...=D
work was challenging today!like testing my brain capacity...with unusual circumstances like 2 letters in one envelope that dun belong to the same owner...n hdb owners complaining bout their AV...lols...in stark contrast to wed...
n mood much better 2day!maybe its coz got things to get my mind off the 'sensitive' issues...
nothing to fear, nothing to hide, nothing...can stop me!
but she is a nice tuition kid!n quite smart too...like a B student trying to get to A...juz not so used to teaching in a landed property with a study n aircon...=D
work was challenging today!like testing my brain capacity...with unusual circumstances like 2 letters in one envelope that dun belong to the same owner...n hdb owners complaining bout their AV...lols...in stark contrast to wed...
n mood much better 2day!maybe its coz got things to get my mind off the 'sensitive' issues...
nothing to fear, nothing to hide, nothing...can stop me!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
bored...
wow now so many ppl tell me my blog very emo...erm...it is??lols=P din realise...i was juz ranting...n typing to vent frustrations...haha...
to alex:thanks bro, for wat u said to me last nite=) really appreciate it...at the moment, i dun think i can, but maybe in future when i've mustered sufficient courage i might?yupz...=)
really boring off day...was thinking of mugging for ftt...but totally not in the mood today...juz wanted to relax n listen to my music...so i end up blogging n chatting my whole day away...at least until i needta go for tuition...which ends at 9!!oH My GODD!
zzz...n sister's internet connection means can't play solitaire!ZZZ!
~and so it was time to leave...time to detach yourself from unworldly worries and just go...~
to alex:thanks bro, for wat u said to me last nite=) really appreciate it...at the moment, i dun think i can, but maybe in future when i've mustered sufficient courage i might?yupz...=)
really boring off day...was thinking of mugging for ftt...but totally not in the mood today...juz wanted to relax n listen to my music...so i end up blogging n chatting my whole day away...at least until i needta go for tuition...which ends at 9!!oH My GODD!
zzz...n sister's internet connection means can't play solitaire!ZZZ!
~and so it was time to leave...time to detach yourself from unworldly worries and just go...~
The All-Seeing Stone of Rameses II
Rameses II, widely regarded as the most successful pharoah in Egyptian history, had, in his possession(albeit briefly), a precious stone known as the All-Seeing Stone. It has been said that Rameses II had so much success in governing his lands because he had the help of this mythical All-Seeing Stone, that helped him to predict what was going to happen n hence prevent it...
would u want to know the future if u had the choice?
to know wat is going to happen next...to know when ur allies r going to betray u...to know when ur loved ones or even urself is going to die...to even know the pain ur family is going to go thru after u die...
n u know wats the worst thing? it is if u can't stop it even though u know it...to know that it's the inevitable...and u r powerless to go against heaven's will...watch everything unfold as u have seen it...gives a sick feeling to ur stomach...
and that's exactly wat i'm feeling now...
like in troy, the final battle between achilles n hector, hector knew he was gonna die...he fought valiantly but still died...in full plain view of his family...the stake that was driven deeper n deeper into his heart...n as he died his pain juz mutiplies threefold, fourfold...
sad isn't it?
it's better not to know wats gonna happen...or wats the inevitable...humans survive on hope...without hope we are nothing...when this is taken away from u, u juz become a soulless creature hoping that everything juz ends quickly...
would u want to trudge forward even though u noe the chances of success is 0.01%? at least i won't...unless there is a 180 degree reversal in fortunes...till then i'll still be like 陈伟联in 触摸..
还有我永远守候 不要难过!
regis-advenio-nunc
would u want to know the future if u had the choice?
to know wat is going to happen next...to know when ur allies r going to betray u...to know when ur loved ones or even urself is going to die...to even know the pain ur family is going to go thru after u die...
n u know wats the worst thing? it is if u can't stop it even though u know it...to know that it's the inevitable...and u r powerless to go against heaven's will...watch everything unfold as u have seen it...gives a sick feeling to ur stomach...
and that's exactly wat i'm feeling now...
like in troy, the final battle between achilles n hector, hector knew he was gonna die...he fought valiantly but still died...in full plain view of his family...the stake that was driven deeper n deeper into his heart...n as he died his pain juz mutiplies threefold, fourfold...
sad isn't it?
it's better not to know wats gonna happen...or wats the inevitable...humans survive on hope...without hope we are nothing...when this is taken away from u, u juz become a soulless creature hoping that everything juz ends quickly...
would u want to trudge forward even though u noe the chances of success is 0.01%? at least i won't...unless there is a 180 degree reversal in fortunes...till then i'll still be like 陈伟联in 触摸..
还有我永远守候 不要难过!
regis-advenio-nunc
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
times juz passes...n i dun even notice...
mythi was backdating all the tcos records today...saw names like vanessa, deyan, anisah, hannah etc etc...all those long gone=P...n realised to my surprise save for joanne n derek, yuern n i are the next in line for lao-jiao status...
not too long ago we were noobs...not too long ago there were 5 of us...not too long ago we were getting squeezed on a daily basis for saying the wrong things...not too long ago we could hear alex's voice from across the office...........
i din realise time has lapsed so drastically...alrdy end april...another 2 more months n the gates of uni creak open for us...n yet how much time hv i actually spent usefully?so many things i've wanted to do i didnt do...so many things i promised myself on midnite of 31st Dec 2008 that i'll try i didnt try...time juz...flew.....
will there be another 8 months in my life where i can live so carefreely?n i didnt grasp the opportunity when i should have...
too many things not done...too many words not said...too many feelings not expressed...will it come back to haunt me?=(
not too long ago we were noobs...not too long ago there were 5 of us...not too long ago we were getting squeezed on a daily basis for saying the wrong things...not too long ago we could hear alex's voice from across the office...........
i din realise time has lapsed so drastically...alrdy end april...another 2 more months n the gates of uni creak open for us...n yet how much time hv i actually spent usefully?so many things i've wanted to do i didnt do...so many things i promised myself on midnite of 31st Dec 2008 that i'll try i didnt try...time juz...flew.....
will there be another 8 months in my life where i can live so carefreely?n i didnt grasp the opportunity when i should have...
too many things not done...too many words not said...too many feelings not expressed...will it come back to haunt me?=(
touch...
轻轻触摸未来遥远的风...
有一天你会找回你的梦...
幸福是看得透 而不是舍不得他的所有...
慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火...
我在这天黑了也不会走...
你的快乐除了他还有...
我永远守候...
不要难过
one of my all time fav songs 触摸by 陈伟联...
especially now since the song so fits my mood n how i feel =X...but in case anyone's wondering, i'm kinda not emo anymore...as our big alex says, emo's for kids n i'm nowhere near a kid...so...yea u get the picture...
i've thought a lot these few days...n decided to release everything n let everything flow as the Heavens dictate..man proposes, god disposes...it's a never changing fact...if it's meant to be it will come, like it or not...opposing it juz does more harm to urself than good...n so i'm juz gonna let the pain ebb away into nothing-ness...if it ever does...
work was boring today, as usual...lucky sister, minfong n OJ were arnd today to trash-talk...at least made work slightly more bearable=)...*wow look at the impact u have on our day, sister=D* n the t/ps are asking the same qns over n over n over again...it's like i can record my answer down in a CD n play it to them...
SAMPLE:
yes ur Instalment plan n tax computation show different amounts to be paid...tts coz the instalment plan takes into account the apr deduction while the tax computation doesnt...if u deduct the apr instalment, which is $____, u will see it tallies...so u geddit geddit geddit??
imagine doing that for 2/3 of the day...see if u get depression=P
after work was tuition...which was okay...he's a bright kid n will surely(like 3000%) do better than my other 2 unfortunate kids residing at circuit rd...lols=) n i got paid 2day!which made my mood slightly better as i trudged hm...
looking forward to the taiwan trip...hopefully i will ease up a little after that n come back refreshed wif a new perspective=)...interesting to know wat can 'develop' while i'm away...as i'm rather sure smth will...
regis-advenio-nunc
有一天你会找回你的梦...
幸福是看得透 而不是舍不得他的所有...
慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火...
我在这天黑了也不会走...
你的快乐除了他还有...
我永远守候...
不要难过
one of my all time fav songs 触摸by 陈伟联...
especially now since the song so fits my mood n how i feel =X...but in case anyone's wondering, i'm kinda not emo anymore...as our big alex says, emo's for kids n i'm nowhere near a kid...so...yea u get the picture...
i've thought a lot these few days...n decided to release everything n let everything flow as the Heavens dictate..man proposes, god disposes...it's a never changing fact...if it's meant to be it will come, like it or not...opposing it juz does more harm to urself than good...n so i'm juz gonna let the pain ebb away into nothing-ness...if it ever does...
work was boring today, as usual...lucky sister, minfong n OJ were arnd today to trash-talk...at least made work slightly more bearable=)...*wow look at the impact u have on our day, sister=D* n the t/ps are asking the same qns over n over n over again...it's like i can record my answer down in a CD n play it to them...
SAMPLE:
yes ur Instalment plan n tax computation show different amounts to be paid...tts coz the instalment plan takes into account the apr deduction while the tax computation doesnt...if u deduct the apr instalment, which is $____, u will see it tallies...so u geddit geddit geddit??
imagine doing that for 2/3 of the day...see if u get depression=P
after work was tuition...which was okay...he's a bright kid n will surely(like 3000%) do better than my other 2 unfortunate kids residing at circuit rd...lols=) n i got paid 2day!which made my mood slightly better as i trudged hm...
looking forward to the taiwan trip...hopefully i will ease up a little after that n come back refreshed wif a new perspective=)...interesting to know wat can 'develop' while i'm away...as i'm rather sure smth will...
regis-advenio-nunc
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
day off thinking...
hey all! welcome to my blog...realised i need a place to organise my thoughts n memories..esp recently...so decided to start one=P
was off today...coz of medical exam at nus...which was a waste of time=X...not exactly very efficient to wait 2 hours for a 15 min test=(...but well it was a fun trash-talk session...
after tt went vivo for lunch n movie wif yuern, sister n minfong...n not forgetting a very random pair of ppl met at nus itself...wootz...i can oni say random coz its happened to meet, then happened to go lunch tgt, n happened to watch knowing tgt...
which brings me to the next part...i've always liked nicholas cage but this movie juz destroys wats left of his credibility...lols=P...if u get wat i mean=)
sighz...ever have this feeling tt u wake up wif a dark cloud above ur head?yea tts kinda wat i felt this morning...no thanks to wat i discovered last nite...n spent the whole night thinking about...to put 2 and 2 tgt to get an outcome tt u do not like is a painful process...whole day i was thinking bout it...perplexing situation...*drips sweat*
i've always liked my gut feeling n instinct...more often than not it helps me to deal wif situations more easily...but recently i've begun to detest it...suddenly i'm not oblivious to everything...too many things i think/infer n realise...too many things i realise i've found out too late...n it might be too late to salvage the situation...
could knowing less actually be a bliss, esp if the answer is sumthing u dun like?
or should i just let it be n let it happen?
on a lighter note, free cone day today!had choc macadamia=D
was off today...coz of medical exam at nus...which was a waste of time=X...not exactly very efficient to wait 2 hours for a 15 min test=(...but well it was a fun trash-talk session...
after tt went vivo for lunch n movie wif yuern, sister n minfong...n not forgetting a very random pair of ppl met at nus itself...wootz...i can oni say random coz its happened to meet, then happened to go lunch tgt, n happened to watch knowing tgt...
which brings me to the next part...i've always liked nicholas cage but this movie juz destroys wats left of his credibility...lols=P...if u get wat i mean=)
sighz...ever have this feeling tt u wake up wif a dark cloud above ur head?yea tts kinda wat i felt this morning...no thanks to wat i discovered last nite...n spent the whole night thinking about...to put 2 and 2 tgt to get an outcome tt u do not like is a painful process...whole day i was thinking bout it...perplexing situation...*drips sweat*
i've always liked my gut feeling n instinct...more often than not it helps me to deal wif situations more easily...but recently i've begun to detest it...suddenly i'm not oblivious to everything...too many things i think/infer n realise...too many things i realise i've found out too late...n it might be too late to salvage the situation...
could knowing less actually be a bliss, esp if the answer is sumthing u dun like?
or should i just let it be n let it happen?
on a lighter note, free cone day today!had choc macadamia=D
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