you go to jail, don't pass GO, don't collect $200.

can friendship be measured in terms of money?

when he asked me to help him, i said yes.

i asked him for the same favour, he rejected outright.

ok.

wow.

i'm not feeling bitter, just kinda disappointed. neither am i saying he's duty obliged to return the favour. just that it feels like a slap in the face with the curt rejection.

i can touch my heart and say that i try my best to help my friends when they need it, even if it means sacrificing certain stuff. i can help a friend who needs to meet a quota for number of interviews made; i can give free tuition if they need it; if they have urgent things to do i can help to relieve the load...etc etc

just disappointed that some people don't feel that way.

maybe i should rethink my beliefs about friendship.

when i wasn't picking up calls today, i was pondering about this issue. i'm a very soft-hearted person, meaning when someone asks me for help, as long as it's within my means, even if i really don't feel like doing it, most likely i'll still oblige.

does that make me weak? or more vulnerable? or does that mean i'm naive?

记得---张惠妹

词:易家扬 曲:林俊杰

谁还记得　
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们
以后的伤口

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了　这条路走了多久心中是清楚的　
有一天　有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得　是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起走到最后

我们都累了　却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑　怎么说　怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由

谁还记得 爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远　终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我　要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得　是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

我和你 手牵手 说要一起 走到最后...

an emo song for an emo evening.

anyway hope zhiyang can get into top 3 to go taiwan. in terms of vocals, character and experience he probably pawns the rest, so jiayou!=D

patience is key...

If we could sell our experiences for what they cost us, we'd all be millionaires.

Abigail Van Buren

my mum asked me a very funny question when i returned home today.

"Does your instructor scold you during the lesson?"

hoho. EVERY SINGLE LESSON.

ROFLMAO.

except today; he was rather satisfied with me =D

i feel like i'm riding on a random streak of good luck. like, suddenly my tuition kid msgs me for additional lessons when i'm feeling kinda poor. then i can somehow still end up punctual for both tuition and driving when i was 15 mins late in leaving my start point. murphy's law suspended. at least for the time being.=P

nothing much happened these 2-3 days. the normal working and slacking at home on off days. everything is at a lull at the moment, like waiting for something to happen. which i suppose is for school and orientation to start. can't really say i'm looking forward to it. i have a feeling i'll feel like going back to work when i start studying again =.=

but oh well. that's a problem for later. and i swore i won't think about future problems. =)

congrats to all those who successfully got into the uni of their choice after the appeal results =) things always work themselves out in the end, and this is no exception. optimism is the way to go! (even though buddy always says i'm the 'little bright ray of hope'. read: sarcasm. LOL. i'm just being realistic what!)

if time is the lock, patience is the key. it will come, sooner or later. just have a bit of patience, and everything will work out fine.

open your heart, and you'll see the paradise...

Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host. But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean.

Maya Angelou

=.= that's fierce. so why bother getting angry? even if you have to, let it not last more than 60 seconds. before it burns everything that you care about away...

got my laptop!it's a fujitsu L1010 and i installed most of the useful programs into it already. wootz! although it kinda reminds me that school is starting soon. LOL.

basically did nothing much this uber long weekend, the usual tuition and slacking at home playing with my comps(old and new) and watching serials online. =P

therefore had plenty of time to think and mull over stuff. i met mark at the pc show en route to going home. used to be extremely good friends with him and mz since we were in same cca for 4 years and then same class for 2 years. kinda drifted apart and lost contact while in VJ coz he took a different sub. comb. and didn't join CO like i did =P. we used to always hang around with each other, but now when i saw him it was like an unfamiliar face, unfamiliar words spoken...

friends drifting apart due to various environmental factors are dime a dozen, but could we have done more to avoid this? or rather could I have done more to prevent this? maybe i could have been more pro-active? Being "busy" is a really lame and inadequate reason coz EVERYONE is busy and EVERYONE has 24hrs a day. it depends on HOW you wanna spend your time and not complain that time is insufficient.

Cherish your friends, especially those that somewhere, somehow, had shared a special bond with you. You might never find another like that again.

To Mark(if you are reading this): Good luck to your studies in the States! And I hope to see you soon my friend!=)

左边---苏打绿

词/曲: 青峰

收拾好旧时光的伤口
投靠了陌生的河流
时间往前冲 冲散了你和我
冲散心跳脉搏
回忆寄放窗口

粉刷好旧屋檐的巷口
掩埋了泪眼的斑驳
在转角之後 扣上故事门锁
请你张开双手
让我死在怀中

握你的左手
散落在我手中的是温柔
曾经给你太多
伤心过 过後总会宽阔

握你的温柔
散落在我心中的是错过
我需要寂寞
来抚摸 雨季中百花凋落过後的沉默

也许就逐渐忘了有多久...

wow this is a class 5 difficulty song! extremely difficult to catch the rhymth and notes. lots of flat and sharp notes, but it's precisely that that makes this song unique and special. =)
cannot get enough of 青峰's voice too!