onset of depression

phew. 4/5 of this super taxing week is over. 1 more 9hr day and i'm done for the week. yay. although there's nothing to look forward to during the weekend. weekend seems like the time to do all the lab reports, tutorials and assignments whose deadlines are fast approaching. not to mention the SS CA next wed.

how encouraging.

like its not enough trying to get work done during the weekdays, i have to sacrifice the weekend too. no choice.

haven't had much choice recently. haven't had much optimism recently too. everyday just seems to be such a burden, thinking of what's gonna happen the next day.

i wake up, staying awake thinking of all the stuffs i still have to do, and breathe a heavy sigh. i can't remember the last time i felt happy waking up, thinking its gonna be a GOOD day, without having to rush from one place to another, without having to worry about school, without having to think about work and more work.

haiz.

depression getting serious.

all i can hope is that next week is better. it better be better.

CNY, CNY come quickly... ... ...