the most happy night i've had in a long long time(:

sis said dad reads my blog. oookay. lol. i asked her what's wrong with that, and she said 'i'll feel insecure if dad's reading my blog.' hmm. i don't see anything wrong with dad reading my blog, if he really does. i don't write discriminating stuff here, and neither do i rant about my family here.

anyone who's interested in my life can visit. no holds barred(:

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i went to school for internal evaluation today. had the semi-exciting job of being one of the emcees of the event. which meant i had to go up on stage about every 10 min and so no time to do my work=.= but nvm. more on that later.

then came the performance with kaili. i thought it was not bad. the three judges concurred that both me and kaili have nice voices and tonal quality and what not and that the thing lacking now is chemistry. and stage presence. they said, 'the guy is trying his best to bring the girl out but the girl doesn't really care...' well. i don't think that it's very fair to say that. kaili was trying her best already; that much i could see. she's tense and nervous, to be expected of a first time performer. i was worse when i first performed. experience changes everything, and unfortunately, experience doesn't come easy. you have to try, fail and try until you succeed before you gain this intangible thing known as experience.

but no matter. i'll try to bring her out more next time. singing wise shouldn't be a problem, coz i engineered it=D oops..sounds abit bhb huh?(: but i engineered it, and marcus and joel thought it was nice, so i suppose it's good?

then was called up on stage during the workshop by the teacher. sang ji de. so coincidental. he asked me to sing the song i'm singing next week. LOL. i thought my version was okay, but the key was a tad low, so didn't get to express myself that well. but surprisingly the teacher said it was not bad=X. okay. my standard abit too steep?oops.

next fri will be the ultimate challenge. i don't think i'm gonna copy cheeyang's improvisation, since many many many people have voiced their disagreements over this obvious plagarism. probably because only cheeyang does this, it's like patented for him only=X. but i can create my own improvisation, which wouldn't be as impressive as cheeyang's, but i can sing in 2 keys below a*mei's original key. that's qt hard actually. test the stability of my falsetto.

i believe i have a video of cheeyang singing ji de on my blog. think its one of the first few entries of my blog. during genesis recital.=)

then i came home and started chionging tuts and reports and essays and what not.
i have:
1) GEK essay
2) Alkynes tut(due wk 11, but heck, do first)
3) Alkenes additional qns
4) Matlab lab 8
5) Read up on MLE text for 4 chapters.
hopefully i can finish mostly all by tmr. should i go for tuition? hmm. i wonder.

watched l'pool fall to lowly sunderland without torres, gerrard and a host of other players. well. can't say i didn't expect that. the way they lost was shitty too. for more info read sunday times tomorrow. confirm alot of talk on that.

but what made me happy to the extent of still being awake at this nocturnal hour of 3am is none of the above. shall not elaborate here. no promises were made, no untrustworthy declarations were said. just plain heart to heart talk. and that is really enough for me(:

at that instant, we were happy. we laughed. we joked. we had friendly banter. we gave ourselves a reprieve from the mundane school work. we chatted. i appreciate it(:

uncertainty is just a verb. humans tend to have periods when they are unsure on what is their next step, what is to come, what is to be done. i've come across a few of such points. i can't say i dealt with them in the best possible method, but i step back. i think. i weigh the options. i make a decision. i forge ahead. even if it happens (touch wood) to be the wrong decision, you know you have thought through it seriously.

i can't tell you to think with your heart or your brain. both, to my knowledge, are equally untrustworthy=.= most of the time, it's a mixture of both. but this time, the normally rational me thought using my heart. rarely have i done so. hence i trust it (:

but then again, that is for the murky future ahead. as much as i wanna talk about it, it is simply not practical now.

for now, tonight (17 Oct 2009) is sufficient.

the happiest and most 'content' night i've had in a long long while=)

P.S.: for this entry, try not to tag=X. i wanna keep this memory as well. you can tell me what you wanna say on msn, in person, on FB, by msg. Appreciate it=D Thanks(:

P.P.S.: for those people who have read all the way to the end of this rather long entry, the performance is on fri about 1230hrs at yih square. behind s'pore post. come if you are free. watch me either spectacularly succeed or spectacularly fail =X think its a 9:1 chance. using Navier-Stokes equation, i calculated it and i think, if i eat breakfast on that day, it'll be a 19:1 chance. of course, that is assuming eating breakfast is a fixed variable........................=D